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I find it difficult to feel good about myself while living with these people. So I looked through icanhascheezburger.com, which made me want to watch The Cat Returns, so I watched that. Ronni interrupted my movie, though, to show me some places she found online for me to consider applying to. It's awesome of her to always be on the look out for jobs for me, and she's also looking for her son Scott in Chula Vista, but jeez.
At least I have time to myself when I exercise and go for my evening walks. Unless she tries to talk to me while I'm exercising, then I get annoyed. I listen to audio books while I work out, and I don't want to keep pausing and take out my ear buds to ask her to repeat herself.
I didn't talk much to either her or dad today. I didn't even make much eye contact. I did what she wanted me to do today, I called the places I applied to and inquired about the status of my applications, but I got no responses from any of them. I'll call them again tomorrow, and will likely get the same thing. I really hope to get a part time job at Gamestop, which I'd hope would last beyond the Christmas season.
But I'm also trying to stay focused in the present moment, it keeps me calm. I'm tired of always being frustrated and angry and irritated at these people, it takes too much energy.
At least I have time to myself when I exercise and go for my evening walks. Unless she tries to talk to me while I'm exercising, then I get annoyed. I listen to audio books while I work out, and I don't want to keep pausing and take out my ear buds to ask her to repeat herself.
I didn't talk much to either her or dad today. I didn't even make much eye contact. I did what she wanted me to do today, I called the places I applied to and inquired about the status of my applications, but I got no responses from any of them. I'll call them again tomorrow, and will likely get the same thing. I really hope to get a part time job at Gamestop, which I'd hope would last beyond the Christmas season.
But I'm also trying to stay focused in the present moment, it keeps me calm. I'm tired of always being frustrated and angry and irritated at these people, it takes too much energy.