Hmm...
So it happened like we all knew it would
it was just a matter in how long....
Friday I saw Vince again, so that I could get my things back...
Seeing him again brought back so many memories and made me want him back so much but I know that if we do go back out he'll just fuck me over again so I'm trying to get over him all over again.
He called me a few hours after I got my things back and we talked for like 20 minutes.
He told me that "In all honesy, he misses me"
Its hard enough talking to him on the phone again.
It was even harder seeing him in person.
Now he tells me he misses me.
wtf?!
It's like trying to get over him all over again... I know that he's not whats best for me and that if we go back out the same shit is just going to happen, but it's so hard to keep myself away from him.
& I know all that bullshit about how I can do better and how he's just a fucker and this and that.
But I can't really change the way I feel about him... I'm thinking maybe giving him one more chance, kind of like a 3 strikes your out kind of thing, this being his 3rd chance and all...
I don't know if I want to go through all the pain I went through all over again, maybe this time I won't let my gaurd down.
Shit I don't know what to do...
I know what I should do
& I know what I want to do...
But they're 2 different things....
AHHHHHHHHHHH.