let this headache subside
i turned on my computer so i could rant. then i realized, with my live cat by my side, sitting on a soft couch in cool temperature, on a friday evening...life really is pretty good.
a few weeks ago i thought my cat was on his death bed. now he's alive and walking, being interactive with me. loving me. he's ALIVE. thank you pfizer! thank you goddess for the 10th life my cat must be on right now. he's a furry bundle of joy.
weeks ago i thought i had a chance with women. now, i'm thinking i don't want to fast-forward anything. i want to stay single. i'm going to hold the opinion that people really have to work hard to prove that they are going to be a good partner for me. usually i find myself fighting to be with someone, trying hard to convince them that i am cool enough for them to date. sometimes i've had to fight with people because i realize it isn't working out...i get too bored, too constrained. this time, i'm not going to fight anyone. that means i can't have anything to fight about. therefore, i will stay single and not even want to date someone even if they seem likable. SHE will have to prove herself to ME, not the other way around. Next time, that's the way it's going to be.
i don't even want to bother writing why i was originally upset. but it involves feeling like i'm being shoved around, even if it's unintentional. it seems like i'm the only one who values me as much as i feel i need to be valued. that's okay, at the very least i know that i'm cool.
so fuck everyone else!!!!!!!!! i like my friends but i am not relying on you for sex, plans, or relationships!
:D got it?
a few weeks ago i thought my cat was on his death bed. now he's alive and walking, being interactive with me. loving me. he's ALIVE. thank you pfizer! thank you goddess for the 10th life my cat must be on right now. he's a furry bundle of joy.
weeks ago i thought i had a chance with women. now, i'm thinking i don't want to fast-forward anything. i want to stay single. i'm going to hold the opinion that people really have to work hard to prove that they are going to be a good partner for me. usually i find myself fighting to be with someone, trying hard to convince them that i am cool enough for them to date. sometimes i've had to fight with people because i realize it isn't working out...i get too bored, too constrained. this time, i'm not going to fight anyone. that means i can't have anything to fight about. therefore, i will stay single and not even want to date someone even if they seem likable. SHE will have to prove herself to ME, not the other way around. Next time, that's the way it's going to be.
i don't even want to bother writing why i was originally upset. but it involves feeling like i'm being shoved around, even if it's unintentional. it seems like i'm the only one who values me as much as i feel i need to be valued. that's okay, at the very least i know that i'm cool.
so fuck everyone else!!!!!!!!! i like my friends but i am not relying on you for sex, plans, or relationships!
:D got it?