cottage cheese because it is good
I don't know how to describe myself today, and by today I suppose I'm referring to lately, in general. I wish I could put it into words, but I can't. I've had so much shit go down in the past week that I just don't know what the fuck is going on. I don't like how I've been, like, half way conscious lately and how I can't seem to comprehend anything...and I mean simple things...like everyday conversations and shit. I swear, I think I'm digressing in every possible meaning of the word. I know for a fact that I'm not at my wittiest, by far. and I'm really hoping that I can blame it all on apathy, but it's not looking soo good...I'm starting to bother myself...and I don't believe that's healthy. Yeh, so I'm stupid...
Isn't it crazy how certain songs directly affect your mood? And how fast it happens?? Insane.
I really want to quit my job, but I've been trying to convince myself for the past few days that it would make it soo much funner if there's a possibility of termination. Think about it...you hate your job, what better way to enjoy it than to try to get fired?! Is my logic soo faulty?...I think not.
"I'd like to see you out one night--dressed up like a teenage porn star..." hmm...wonder how many people know what that's from...?
I hate not being able open up to people about things, especially people that I should trust, whether I do or not is at my disposal of course, but still. It does work out for the better because I know that I'm not making myself vulnerable, but it really sucks that it has to be that way. Why I'm such a thick skinned person...I don't know...actually, I do know, and that's what sucks even more.
I wish I could sleep forever. Well, not forever. I'd still like to be able to wake up to realize that I was sleeping and get that wonderful feeling of, 'yes! I'm awake ::stretch:: and now I get to go back to sleep, even better!!!' I love that feeling. I'm such a lazy ass, but it's good.
Fefe's running in her wheel and I don't want to stop her, but people are sleeping and it's squeaking. I need some WD-40 or something. Poor thing,she's probably freezing...we'll cuddle later. hahaha :)
Man, fuck. I gotta do something. Peace.
Isn't it crazy how certain songs directly affect your mood? And how fast it happens?? Insane.
I really want to quit my job, but I've been trying to convince myself for the past few days that it would make it soo much funner if there's a possibility of termination. Think about it...you hate your job, what better way to enjoy it than to try to get fired?! Is my logic soo faulty?...I think not.
"I'd like to see you out one night--dressed up like a teenage porn star..." hmm...wonder how many people know what that's from...?
I hate not being able open up to people about things, especially people that I should trust, whether I do or not is at my disposal of course, but still. It does work out for the better because I know that I'm not making myself vulnerable, but it really sucks that it has to be that way. Why I'm such a thick skinned person...I don't know...actually, I do know, and that's what sucks even more.
I wish I could sleep forever. Well, not forever. I'd still like to be able to wake up to realize that I was sleeping and get that wonderful feeling of, 'yes! I'm awake ::stretch:: and now I get to go back to sleep, even better!!!' I love that feeling. I'm such a lazy ass, but it's good.
Fefe's running in her wheel and I don't want to stop her, but people are sleeping and it's squeaking. I need some WD-40 or something. Poor thing,she's probably freezing...we'll cuddle later. hahaha :)
Man, fuck. I gotta do something. Peace.