Missing you

[green_irish_eye]

I know you won't read this. I know you have no clue that this journal is even here.

I miss you. I miss you more than I should. All I do is think about you...think about us.

I know you miss me. You told me. I know you love me...forever and a week.

This ache inside of me won't go away. I wish I didn't miss you. I wish that my heart didn't need you. I wish that my body and soul didn't need you either.

but they do

I might get annoyed with you. I might just piss and moan about you. It is all this front I built. I created this fort around my heart because I was tried of getting hurt.

You have always had my heart, my soul, and yes, even my body. You have yet to have my mind though. I don't think you really want that...well, maybe on the days where I don't see it your way.

I didn't even know you liked me until the dough nut day. Before that you were just another face in the crowd. Then we had our first "date". I knew that night what I wanted from you, from us. It scared me. It made me hold on to you and push you away at the same time. It made me run from you and into your arms all at once. The feelings that I have felt over the years that I have know you I have felt before, but not exactly like that. Somehow it was different. Somehow it made my mind not be able to think straight. If I let my heart lead I was always with you, but as soon as my mind took over I would run or fight with you. I am sorry for all of that.

I love you. I always have and always will. I love you forever and a week.

Te volo bene.