things
Ive been feeling strange recently. Im back in the UK, but im not as exited about being here than i could be. Im not sure why i just cant be satisfied... im always dreaming i was elsewhere, or that i could go elsewhere.
I also still think about Jason everyday even though it has been over a year now that he left me, and i havent had any contact with him since. I got myself into such a wierd place last night while going to sleep where i wanted to grab my phone and call him.... i dont even know if he still uses the same phone number though. I managed to talk myself out of it. After all it is him who hasnt made contact with me at all, its him who left me, and i guess why the heck would he want to hear from me then? I still miss him, and a part of me will love him forever i think. it still makes me sad and confused. am i just that sad?!
I have a new photo project i need to work on.... its going slowly at the moment but hopefully i will mnage to build up some momentum and get a rocking project out it.
its hard to be a student with no money after having had a job (even a menial one that i didnt want to keep for ever), and money to spend. i want to go places, see things but everything costs money! if i do go to grad school i want to be a LOT closer to a city so i dont have to spend so bloody much on trains that i end up not going anywhere.
I am looking into getting my drivers liscence done here in the UK. its a little bit cheaper than in switz, and i will just have to drive on the 'wong' side of the road, and use the other arm etc etc. I guess i cant get used to it.
I am still thoroughly obsessed with Mini's. I so must have one, or three once i can drive. HA , like that will happen while i am a student.
If i do manage to go to the states to grad school.... i probably wont find myself a nice lil classic Mini out there either! aurgh! i cant have everything.
anyways here are some things going on in the world of Helena, in WET COLD UK.... can u tell i adore living here?? =p
I also still think about Jason everyday even though it has been over a year now that he left me, and i havent had any contact with him since. I got myself into such a wierd place last night while going to sleep where i wanted to grab my phone and call him.... i dont even know if he still uses the same phone number though. I managed to talk myself out of it. After all it is him who hasnt made contact with me at all, its him who left me, and i guess why the heck would he want to hear from me then? I still miss him, and a part of me will love him forever i think. it still makes me sad and confused. am i just that sad?!
I have a new photo project i need to work on.... its going slowly at the moment but hopefully i will mnage to build up some momentum and get a rocking project out it.
its hard to be a student with no money after having had a job (even a menial one that i didnt want to keep for ever), and money to spend. i want to go places, see things but everything costs money! if i do go to grad school i want to be a LOT closer to a city so i dont have to spend so bloody much on trains that i end up not going anywhere.
I am looking into getting my drivers liscence done here in the UK. its a little bit cheaper than in switz, and i will just have to drive on the 'wong' side of the road, and use the other arm etc etc. I guess i cant get used to it.
I am still thoroughly obsessed with Mini's. I so must have one, or three once i can drive. HA , like that will happen while i am a student.
If i do manage to go to the states to grad school.... i probably wont find myself a nice lil classic Mini out there either! aurgh! i cant have everything.
anyways here are some things going on in the world of Helena, in WET COLD UK.... can u tell i adore living here?? =p