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[green_ied_devil]

I am off today and tomorrow...which is cool b/c Friday is my birthday...but something horrible has happened...my stepgrandma died on Tuesday morning...She did so much for me when i lived with her...I wouldn't have gotten through some things if it had not been for her...it's hard to realize that something like this has happened...it takes a bit to sink in...hearing it just doesn't make it real...It hit me that morning when I was alone at my house...
...there are two ways that people cry...there is the crying when your parents have just yelled at you and made you so mad that you could just scream...your chest is bouncing uncontrolably up and down...you're gasping for air, but it seems likes our breathing will never slow.......than there's the type of crying that you do when some horrible tragedy has happened...then you're blank...expressionless...and the tears just steadily stream down...you feel paralyzed...the thoughts in your mind are just swirling around, unable to be sorted out...
...I need to get out of the house...It's a beautiful day...I adopted a soldier the other day...he/she becomes like your pen pal and you send them things that they need...it's a good program...many of the soldiers don't have families and it's nice for them to have someone to brighten their day...if anyone is interested you can visit...www.soldiersangels.org...
...later...g_i_d