...wow...it's me again...I'm back...
Hey everyone...what's going on?...I know that I haven't updated in like years...I'm just busy with work and everything...chaos...I work all the time...and on my days off I do household junk that needs to be done...or go out on the town with my chicky poos...I don't want to go into to much detail...but I am sad...I fear that I am turning into my father and that I can't do anything to change it...I see his traits in me all of the time...and it's hard to change something like yourself when it is due to the way that you were raised...I know that some of you have NO idea what the hey I'm talking about...let's just say that my dad is not very nice, honest, trustworthy or decent...I feel so numb sometimes...I do anything bad and it hardly even phases me like it should...I need to find my emotions desperately...I can't cry...it's horrible...I haven't tried to, but I think if I hit someone's cat it wouldn't make me cry...I'd feel bad for it...but no tears...and I am a SERIOUS animal person...I really don't get it....it's confusing and I know that it hurts me and others and I wish like hell that I could change it...but as always like cruel irony works...if I don't change and hurt someone it's not like I will cry about it!!!...I seem to always have the feeling as though I have hurt someone and they just don't want to say it...if I have hurt anyone...even if it is something REALLY stupid, please tell me...I hate to think that I have hurt anyone b/c I know it sucks...
"I Fell"
I fell
Like the rain falls to the Earth
Hitting hard
Splattering to the four winds
I fell
Like a glass casually knocked off of a table
Shattering instantly
My pieces scattered on the ground
Never to recover all of them again
I fell
Like an infant taking its first steps
Stumbling clumsily
Because even though everything is the same, it's all different now
that is just a poem that I started a while ago and finished today...it kind of describes how I feel...it's horrible...I need something/someone to brighten my day...it's pretty overcast from where I am....love ya lots...talk to ya later.........g_i_d
"I Fell"
I fell
Like the rain falls to the Earth
Hitting hard
Splattering to the four winds
I fell
Like a glass casually knocked off of a table
Shattering instantly
My pieces scattered on the ground
Never to recover all of them again
I fell
Like an infant taking its first steps
Stumbling clumsily
Because even though everything is the same, it's all different now
that is just a poem that I started a while ago and finished today...it kind of describes how I feel...it's horrible...I need something/someone to brighten my day...it's pretty overcast from where I am....love ya lots...talk to ya later.........g_i_d