100 Daily Tegomass Drabbles /// 017.Question
Title: Question
Pairing: Tegomass
Rating: PG-13
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Summary: About asking the wrong things and receiving the wrong answers.
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017.Question
He should not have asked, Tegoshi knew he shouldn’t. It had been stupid and hadn’t he told himself just so many times before that that idea was absolutely hilarious and pointless?
Even so, he had asked.
Even though he had known that it was useless, pointless, completely out of his mind, he had made his request without a single thought on his mind.
That was the problem in the first place. He was losing his mind when Masuda was around, losing his ability to think straight.
And now, after they had spent so much time with just the two of them, no one else around, it had just gotten worse.
When they had been in NEWS, Tegoshi could have always just turned to someone else and if they’d be alone, then, only on stage or during rehearsals and that wasn’t actually being alone.
But now, they were a unit, something that made Tegoshi go insane already. A unit, just like a couple.
At least, that was how it felt to him.
They were singing partners, okay, but during the last few months they had spent as the new group they were now, he had felt he had gotten so much closer to Masuda, so much closer.
They had gone abroad together, had been sitting next to each other in the plane and since Masuda had been afraid, he had held Tegoshi’s hand tightly.
Despite that he had actually and really been up in the skies, Tegoshi had felt like in heaven.
He had figured to himself that Masuda just wasn’t a special friend to him like he had always believed. He had fallen in love with Masuda, very clearly.
And that was something Tegoshi couldn’t quite get over.
He wasn’t the type to just stay calm about it; he had to talk about that. Had to confess, no matter what the answer would be.
That was simply the way he was.
Now, he sat in an arm chair at home, Tinny in his lap, sleeping peacefully. He absently stoked her back, ran his fingers through her soft fur.
He had made a huge mistake with asking Masuda what he had asked today and the fact that Masuda didn’t call, didn’t come, didn’t react to it, at all, just convinced him in believing that even more.
“You know”, Tegoshi had started on their way back home, securely sitting together with Masuda in the back of the car, “I would like to ask you something.”
Masuda had lifted his head to him, nodding to show Tegoshi he could.
“Do you like me?”
Masuda had laughed slightly. “Of course I like you, Tegoshi.”
Smiling, the younger one had relaxed, feeling a lot more encouraged to go on. “How much so you like me?”
“What kind of game is that”, Masuda had wanted to know, slightly amused by Tegoshi’s behaviour. “Tegoshi is a very good friend.”
“A very good friend”, Tegoshi had repeated Masuda’s words, not sure how he found that. “And…” he swallowed thickly, not really wanting to ask, but he knew he had to, “is there anyone you love?”
Masuda had turned his head to him, his look a bit shocked, and Tegoshi had known instantly he had just gotten his answer. Masuda was in love with someone.
Hesitating, Masuda had tilted his head, avoided looking at Tegoshi directly. “I am.”
They had dropped the topic there, Tegoshi not wanting to push any further.
He should not have asked, really.
It had destroyed all of his illusions and dreams. How was he supposed to face Masuda now? He knew he loved him and he also knew he couldn’t have him.
The fact alone that they were both working at idols was making it difficult enough already. But somehow, in the back of his mind and even somewhere in his heart, Tegoshi had still hoped he’d make Masuda return his feelings.
Instead, with that question, he had shattered his hope completely on his own.
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Oh, Tego, if you only knew... ♥
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