ramblefest 2k9?
i think i might be a hypochondriac...
i constantly think something is wrong with me. besides all the other shit. i mean besides being weird and slightly creepy.
lets face it, i was made to be this way.
my mom has had stage four lymphoma, kidney stones, gall stones and gall bladder removal, and a hysterectomy all before the age of 40.
my biological father suffered from severe obesity and had 2 heart attacks. the 2nd was when he died, i was under the age of one.
my aunts and uncles have had all sorts of conditions. too many to name. many PSYCHOLOGICAL!
my great grandmother had leukemia, she passed away from it.
breast cancer runs in my family. CANCER runs in my family.
i have...SEVERE ADD. i mean severe. diagnosed, was on medication for years, it turned me into a complete robot. an expressionless, emotionless human being. not sure that i was a human on these pills. because of my ADD, certain times, places, and people most definitely made it worse. for example, food lion used to always make me insanely hyper when i shopped there with my momma. very ironic that i work there now, and i am still pretty hyper when i go to work.
i am diagnosed with high blood pressure, severe allergies, severe asthma, high cholesterol, migraines, tinnitus, pre-diabetes, anemia, and the doctor tells me i am obese. or OBEAST!
i think i have, a fucking blood clot. no make that two. a pinching, piercing pain only in my upper thigh. pain in the legs, all over. it hurts like i am being stabbed in the legs. if someone just pats my thigh it hurts like a motherfucker. i don't know if this is because of the blood clot that i most definitely have or not. i bruise very easily, from the slightest thing. i know everybody dies eventually, but will these conditions and issues that run in my family haunt me for the rest of my life? i hope not. i'm already crazy enough as it is.
sometimes i just don't feel right.
i constantly think something is wrong with me. besides all the other shit. i mean besides being weird and slightly creepy.
lets face it, i was made to be this way.
my mom has had stage four lymphoma, kidney stones, gall stones and gall bladder removal, and a hysterectomy all before the age of 40.
my biological father suffered from severe obesity and had 2 heart attacks. the 2nd was when he died, i was under the age of one.
my aunts and uncles have had all sorts of conditions. too many to name. many PSYCHOLOGICAL!
my great grandmother had leukemia, she passed away from it.
breast cancer runs in my family. CANCER runs in my family.
i have...SEVERE ADD. i mean severe. diagnosed, was on medication for years, it turned me into a complete robot. an expressionless, emotionless human being. not sure that i was a human on these pills. because of my ADD, certain times, places, and people most definitely made it worse. for example, food lion used to always make me insanely hyper when i shopped there with my momma. very ironic that i work there now, and i am still pretty hyper when i go to work.
i am diagnosed with high blood pressure, severe allergies, severe asthma, high cholesterol, migraines, tinnitus, pre-diabetes, anemia, and the doctor tells me i am obese. or OBEAST!
i think i have, a fucking blood clot. no make that two. a pinching, piercing pain only in my upper thigh. pain in the legs, all over. it hurts like i am being stabbed in the legs. if someone just pats my thigh it hurts like a motherfucker. i don't know if this is because of the blood clot that i most definitely have or not. i bruise very easily, from the slightest thing. i know everybody dies eventually, but will these conditions and issues that run in my family haunt me for the rest of my life? i hope not. i'm already crazy enough as it is.
sometimes i just don't feel right.