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Possibly inspired by PMS (too much information?) I have launched into a deep and vehement hate of the story I slapped together for my creative writing class. It leads me to deduce, looking over it, that I role-play too much and write too little.
It's true. I certainly don't post as much as a should, but I've always role-played and I can't escape it in writing. The redundant attention to little facial twitches, not having nearly enough distance from the characters, telling and not showing. I don't mind the story I ended up writing, it fulfilled the prompt Icca's helpfully given and let me work with a few originals I'd been kicking around in my head, but I'm ashamed of it as a submission to a college writing class.
I don't know how to step back. I can't figure it out. I can't, and it's incredibly frustrating, and I'm hyper aware of it as I write out a post now, or glance back to the beast which is OK, but too.... juvenile and too close. I hope they don't completely hate it. I hope it's legitimate, even as I know it's not, and they can tell me how to fix it. I'm so afraid of being thought of as a bad writer, and I don't mean in getting criticism, I mean in just being BAD and BEYOND criticism, and maybe that sounds ridiculous, but I haven't slept and the more I think of the story, without point or satisfying moment, the more I'm afraid I'm just bad, bad, bad, and need to give up this writing biz yesterday. (note: NOT A CRY for positive comments about how it's not true and you're good/whatever, don't worry).
Oh the paranoia! I can't. Fix it.
It's true. I certainly don't post as much as a should, but I've always role-played and I can't escape it in writing. The redundant attention to little facial twitches, not having nearly enough distance from the characters, telling and not showing. I don't mind the story I ended up writing, it fulfilled the prompt Icca's helpfully given and let me work with a few originals I'd been kicking around in my head, but I'm ashamed of it as a submission to a college writing class.
I don't know how to step back. I can't figure it out. I can't, and it's incredibly frustrating, and I'm hyper aware of it as I write out a post now, or glance back to the beast which is OK, but too.... juvenile and too close. I hope they don't completely hate it. I hope it's legitimate, even as I know it's not, and they can tell me how to fix it. I'm so afraid of being thought of as a bad writer, and I don't mean in getting criticism, I mean in just being BAD and BEYOND criticism, and maybe that sounds ridiculous, but I haven't slept and the more I think of the story, without point or satisfying moment, the more I'm afraid I'm just bad, bad, bad, and need to give up this writing biz yesterday. (note: NOT A CRY for positive comments about how it's not true and you're good/whatever, don't worry).
Oh the paranoia! I can't. Fix it.