REMINDER & PSA & Getting on my soap box
Remember people, positive thinking and wording can manifest great things in your life. You just need to choose to be in that head space. It isn't always easy I know first hand when you are ill or in pain. It is just that important to remember to do it.
Why am I saying this everywhere? FB, Twitter ... here?
Because gawd damn it I am tired of some people being negative. I don't even need to say who you are. Why? Because if you are assuming it is about you.... you are probably correct. And if you are so into your ego you don't think it is about you.... I ask you to look at yourself and double check.
I am constantly being told it isn't what I say but how I say it. That goes both ways. It doesn't need to always be about tone. It can literally be the words coming out of your mouth. How you phrase it. Do you put a negative spin on everything you say? Can not good news be happy? Truely happy?
Just be happy damn it! And if you can't be, don't say a damn thing.
I was told over dinner that don't I know people who are chronically sick fall into depression and are negative? BAWA?!! Do you all forget who you are talking to?
I am the woman who has been in pain 75% if not more of my adult life. Chronic, life altering, life changing, PAIN.
Do you all remember I get migraines when I ovulate for 5 days. When I pms for that lovely week and then the lovely 7 days of a heavy cycle? Do you know how many days that leaves me in a month pain free? Trying to recouperate and get my shit in order in the 7 days of the month that I am not in pain. I am a whirlwind of activity then because I don't have someone to dust or clean my house and I can't stand filth and I attempt to do it then. I FUCKING KNOW CHRONIC PAIN. Pain that will not let me talk to people, that keeps me close to the bathroom because I throw up. Pain that doesn't let me see the light of day, visit with people or go to the damn movies. Pain that doesn't let me go to a busy restaurant to eat because the noise kills me and I can't hold it down anyway. Pain that limits my job hunting ability or the kind of job I can hold down. Even if I can manage through it, because that is what 20 years of dealing with a chronic illness does to you, I don't function anywhere near the levels I would like to.
So knowing all this and seeing how I function and you wonder how I survive without falling into that cloud of doom and gloom? Because when I was 22 I was put on Paxil and Zoloft and it did very very VERY BAD things to me. The worst 9 months of my life I cannot remember! So I push myself every day to smile. I push myself every day to see the positive. I find the one happy thing and I keep at it over and over. Because I have seen how being positive can change your life and the reality you create. I don't like mornings. I don't like getting out of bed and forcing myself to shower. Then sit there and need and want to nap until I can dry my hair. Then if I go out then I will try and put on a bit of make up and curl the hair. FAKE IT until you Make it!
I don't want to do my illness is greater than yours. Or my suffering is more than yours. Because we make our own reality with it. We have our own ghosts and horrors in our head and no one can compare it to another. I show you this example so you remember that even though you see me smiling and looking nice it isn't what is happening inside. It is just what I project. Because I wont be the reason someone else feels bad or what ever.
I want to be positive but do you know how hard it is to be positive when people spew negativity every moment of their lives? So help me make this world a more positive place. Like I said the other day it is hard being in this ecconomy. People aren't happy. So do your part to be happy and make the world a better place.
Why am I saying this everywhere? FB, Twitter ... here?
Because gawd damn it I am tired of some people being negative. I don't even need to say who you are. Why? Because if you are assuming it is about you.... you are probably correct. And if you are so into your ego you don't think it is about you.... I ask you to look at yourself and double check.
I am constantly being told it isn't what I say but how I say it. That goes both ways. It doesn't need to always be about tone. It can literally be the words coming out of your mouth. How you phrase it. Do you put a negative spin on everything you say? Can not good news be happy? Truely happy?
Just be happy damn it! And if you can't be, don't say a damn thing.
I was told over dinner that don't I know people who are chronically sick fall into depression and are negative? BAWA?!! Do you all forget who you are talking to?
I am the woman who has been in pain 75% if not more of my adult life. Chronic, life altering, life changing, PAIN.
Do you all remember I get migraines when I ovulate for 5 days. When I pms for that lovely week and then the lovely 7 days of a heavy cycle? Do you know how many days that leaves me in a month pain free? Trying to recouperate and get my shit in order in the 7 days of the month that I am not in pain. I am a whirlwind of activity then because I don't have someone to dust or clean my house and I can't stand filth and I attempt to do it then. I FUCKING KNOW CHRONIC PAIN. Pain that will not let me talk to people, that keeps me close to the bathroom because I throw up. Pain that doesn't let me see the light of day, visit with people or go to the damn movies. Pain that doesn't let me go to a busy restaurant to eat because the noise kills me and I can't hold it down anyway. Pain that limits my job hunting ability or the kind of job I can hold down. Even if I can manage through it, because that is what 20 years of dealing with a chronic illness does to you, I don't function anywhere near the levels I would like to.
So knowing all this and seeing how I function and you wonder how I survive without falling into that cloud of doom and gloom? Because when I was 22 I was put on Paxil and Zoloft and it did very very VERY BAD things to me. The worst 9 months of my life I cannot remember! So I push myself every day to smile. I push myself every day to see the positive. I find the one happy thing and I keep at it over and over. Because I have seen how being positive can change your life and the reality you create. I don't like mornings. I don't like getting out of bed and forcing myself to shower. Then sit there and need and want to nap until I can dry my hair. Then if I go out then I will try and put on a bit of make up and curl the hair. FAKE IT until you Make it!
I don't want to do my illness is greater than yours. Or my suffering is more than yours. Because we make our own reality with it. We have our own ghosts and horrors in our head and no one can compare it to another. I show you this example so you remember that even though you see me smiling and looking nice it isn't what is happening inside. It is just what I project. Because I wont be the reason someone else feels bad or what ever.
I want to be positive but do you know how hard it is to be positive when people spew negativity every moment of their lives? So help me make this world a more positive place. Like I said the other day it is hard being in this ecconomy. People aren't happy. So do your part to be happy and make the world a better place.