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I want to go home. I'm exhausted, physically, mentally, emotionally. Mostly the last one I think. This has been an...interesting 2 months. And now I really need to be away from the city. I need mountains and trees and space. Having so many people around ALL the time is very draining. I don't know how people who life in the city permanently manage it. I'd go completely nuts.
I've decided I don't think I want a committed emotional relationship. It just doesn't seem to work for me. Either (mostly) nothing ever happens, nothing ever starts, or in the rare cases that something does get going, it doesn't seem to last. So I think I just need to stay away from attempting to actually get a relationship with someone going. Flirting, sure, I seem to be ok at that if I'm not paying too much attention. But I need to try not to think I'm getting deeply emotionally connected to someone. So far I don't think it's really ever been true, and it'll just end in pain, it always has.
On the plus side, I just got complimented for my code and comments for the 004 lab. That felt nice.
3 days and I'll be home. 1 test and part of a pset. That's do-able.
I've decided I don't think I want a committed emotional relationship. It just doesn't seem to work for me. Either (mostly) nothing ever happens, nothing ever starts, or in the rare cases that something does get going, it doesn't seem to last. So I think I just need to stay away from attempting to actually get a relationship with someone going. Flirting, sure, I seem to be ok at that if I'm not paying too much attention. But I need to try not to think I'm getting deeply emotionally connected to someone. So far I don't think it's really ever been true, and it'll just end in pain, it always has.
On the plus side, I just got complimented for my code and comments for the 004 lab. That felt nice.
3 days and I'll be home. 1 test and part of a pset. That's do-able.