Biiiiiiiiiig entry.
wether you mean or have meant the things you've said to or about people, your apparent lack of any regard whatsoever for opening your trap makes you not a nice person in my books.
the one time i got close to you and my opinion of you soared so high, you fucked me over.
Actually that sad enough t read back through livejournal, my sense of humor has matured ever so slightly to see and understand the everflowing, abundant insults and jibes towards me in the past, they, friend have been consistant over the years. How very, very stupid of me, you were right, i always was naive. Stupid enough to be upset by it.
ahh that feels better. salad fingers. [thats for you nicola].
On the other side of the coin, ive noticed how fucking wonderful some people are.
Nicola being one of them. I don't care what any one says she needs to change, even if it is her mother! she is who she is and i think thats fucking brilliant. Dont ever change, please. There are so many qualities that shine through with you and you never let anyone try and change you. I think there are so many layers to you i have yet to see.
Ross, theres a nice guy. He's a nice guy, it's that simple. I just think he's lovely. A good friend too. Kind of rare these days.
I'm seeing new sides to Ben aswell. As i piece together the picture of him in our time apart, he's still as layered and delicate as i remember, yet he still has the heart of a lion. so fragile yet so resilliant. I think he's a miracle.
It's so nice when people remind you of why you invested so much time or heart into people.
Yes, you, hattie. Youre such a lovely, caring person. I miss you, still.
Thats enough for now, im slightly teary. x