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my goodness...this has been the longest 3 hours 45 minutes of my life. my "internation cinema 1960-present" class is more like a history class with films to emphasize points the teacher makes. i'm going to hate hate hate it
!!!! the teacher is a first year teacher here at ucsc, which means he sucks. we are going to learn about Mao and communist China. ooo, how INTERNATIONAL. bah on this class. this professor sucks too, because he talks quietly, then interupts himself to talk to himself, while he mumbles..m.y god i didn't understand what i was supposed to be learning today. i'm not in the section i NEED to be in for sure, so that sucks. and now i have to go to another class until 8:30 tonite, and i'm so fucking sick i can't believe it. i'm coughing, and sniffing, and sneezing, and have a headache, and a sore throat, and every other horrid thing that comes with having a cold.
all i want to do is sleep but nooo..i have to go to the 9 am section tomorrow morning to say i can't be in that section, followed by class at 10-12...ugh ugh ugh...i really really REALLY hate fucking school. i'm not gonna learn anything, so i don't really see the point...i mean i know the point...i have to go to school to get a little piece of paper that shows i was smart enough to complete a bunch of bullshit.
i should just runaway...go somewhere new, and just start all over again. and i would if i could support myself, or even if i wasn't diabetic. that makes me so fucking dependent on the world, on having money so i can buy the medicine i need to live. it SUCKS.
anyway, i guess i'll get ready to go over to my next class...at least i have a book read...i like reading. it's HAPPY. not that i'm feeling very cheerful right now. argh.
i think i'll go before i complain anymore...and hopefully be back later in a better mood. yes....think happy warm sun, flowers, ocean, faeries, glitter, stars, and adam. all those happy things.
!!!! the teacher is a first year teacher here at ucsc, which means he sucks. we are going to learn about Mao and communist China. ooo, how INTERNATIONAL. bah on this class. this professor sucks too, because he talks quietly, then interupts himself to talk to himself, while he mumbles..m.y god i didn't understand what i was supposed to be learning today. i'm not in the section i NEED to be in for sure, so that sucks. and now i have to go to another class until 8:30 tonite, and i'm so fucking sick i can't believe it. i'm coughing, and sniffing, and sneezing, and have a headache, and a sore throat, and every other horrid thing that comes with having a cold.
all i want to do is sleep but nooo..i have to go to the 9 am section tomorrow morning to say i can't be in that section, followed by class at 10-12...ugh ugh ugh...i really really REALLY hate fucking school. i'm not gonna learn anything, so i don't really see the point...i mean i know the point...i have to go to school to get a little piece of paper that shows i was smart enough to complete a bunch of bullshit.
i should just runaway...go somewhere new, and just start all over again. and i would if i could support myself, or even if i wasn't diabetic. that makes me so fucking dependent on the world, on having money so i can buy the medicine i need to live. it SUCKS.
anyway, i guess i'll get ready to go over to my next class...at least i have a book read...i like reading. it's HAPPY. not that i'm feeling very cheerful right now. argh.
i think i'll go before i complain anymore...and hopefully be back later in a better mood. yes....think happy warm sun, flowers, ocean, faeries, glitter, stars, and adam. all those happy things.