4 Mischiefs Managed - [accidental video]

Sep 23, 2011 18:52

[The video cuts in mid-action. George is standing in what some may recognise as the Weasley cabin's kitchen. He has a glass of water in his hand which he is staring into, his eyes wide. Both hands are shaking, and he shoves his right one into his pocket to steady it. His breath suddenly hitches, and he looks like he's having difficulty breathing ( Read more... )

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a cup full of nothing for him to indulge - he feels alone; feorging September 23 2011, 23:48:08 UTC
[The sound of glass shattering doesn't go unnoticed, even from where Fred's lazing about on his bed. George had only gone to get a glass of water - what in Merlin's name could've happened in the meanwhile? Being that they've just come from a war, an uncomfortable wariness instinctively spreads to the pit of his stomach, and then Fred's on his feet. Running, because he doesn't have the sense to just Apparate there. He can't stop to think that far.

All he knows is he needs to be with George - now.]

George!

[He whips around the corner of the stairs unsafely fast, considering he's just in his socks, but he doesn't care. He doesn't stop until he's in the kitchen with his brother, hands holding tight to both of his arms so he can see if he's hurt. Some of the red seems to be returning at the roots of his hair, panic feeding the concern in Fred's eyes as they rove across his face and person to see where he's been injured. He doesn't even notice the blue on the wall - it's not important to him at the moment.]

What is it? What's happened?

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a cup full of nothing for him to indulge - he feels alone; greding September 23 2011, 23:54:22 UTC
[He barely notices Fred until he's holding onto him. His eyes are still swimming with tears. He wipes his eyes with the back of his hand hastily, covering his shaky breath with a cough. He's here, George. He's not going anywhere. It's a mantra he's been saying to himself for weeks now, and keeps repeating it in the front of his mind as he tries in vain to remember what exactly he was doing before all this.]

I'm fine. Just... thought I saw something.

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a cup full of nothing for him to indulge - he feels alone; feorging September 24 2011, 00:14:48 UTC
['Nothing,' he says. Rubbish, Fred's not buying it for a second. George is shaking and - Hell, there are tears. His still-born heart leaps up into his throat, because George is doing his utmost not to cry, and this does not sit well with him at all. There are so few things able to incite this sort of reaction--.

One hand leaves George's arm to cup his head beneath the only remaining ear so Fred can get a better look at him. Not bleeding, not hurt - at least not physically - and that's enough to at least let him clap a hand playfully to his twin's cheek before letting go of him completely.]

Hardly one to be spooked so easy, mate. It wasn't a spider, was it?

[Subtly teasing Ron; always a good way to deflect from the tearing in his throat. He tries, tries damn hard, but the words still come out strained. What could he have possibly seen?]

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a cup full of nothing for him to indulge - he feels alone; greding September 24 2011, 00:22:55 UTC
[Fred knows something is going on, and George can tell. Of course he can tell. He can tell everything that bloody man is thinking. He wants to laugh with him. He wants to tell jokes and smile and pretend everything is fine. More than fine. But he's never been able to lie to Fred. Not before, and he doesn't want to make a habit of it now, now that Fred is...

Well. If he can't tell Fred, who can he ever tell?]

I think this place is playing tricks on me again. I went to get a glass of water and I thought I saw...

[He rubs his hands over his face again. Don't make him say it. He's been avoiding saying it for months.]

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a cup full of nothing for him to indulge - he feels alone; feorging September 24 2011, 01:07:46 UTC
[Bloody Hell, he did see-. He must've, and Fred knows it as true as he knows his own name, just like everything else he knows about his brother. His twin. His other bleeding half, and he's struggling so much right now but there's not a single bloody thing he can do about it because he's been struggling with the same exact thing. He knows, and he doesn't want to hear it said, doesn't want to have to face it straight. But at the same time, he knows George has to.

Fred's free to rot here in blissful ignorance of all the icky painful bits, but regardless of whether he stays here or leaves, George will still have to cope with his death. This is the last thing he ever wants to talk about, but he has to. For George.]

Oh, you know how well I enjoy the suspense. [No, Georgie. His hands go into his pockets to hide the fists they curl into. He keeps his eyes glued to George's. And the only reason he isn't breathing shakily is that he has no need to breath at all - and isn't that the problem in the first place?] Go on, then. Spit it out.

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a cup full of nothing for him to indulge - he feels alone; greding September 24 2011, 01:19:03 UTC
[You bastard, Fred Weasley. He's now had to watch you die twice, you pillock. George's eyes harden behind the tears, and he masks it with another wipe across his face.]

You died, Fred. You bloody died again in my glass of water.

[The rage from before fills him again, making him want to lash out, grab everything that's nearby and break it. Instead his hands clench onto the counter behind him, turning his knuckles white.]

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a cup full of nothing for him to indulge - he feels alone; feorging September 24 2011, 02:00:06 UTC
[Fred's not quite so composed. He tries to be, inhaling stiffly out of frustration, but it only lasts a minute before the blue tinge to the wall starts to make sense and it all boils over. He turns and grabs a chain from the dining table - and throws it against the wall. It splinters apart, but it's easily Repared, not that Fred cares right now. He braces both hands against the table, keeping his back to George, and just. Breathes. Tries not to let the anger and guilt and irritation and guilt and depression and ungodly amounts of fucking guilt take over.

But he fails. Again.

One more chair gets thrown to the floor in his haste to leave the kitchen, to leave his brother's mess of glass and water, those cruel and unfair tears biting at his twin's eyes. He can't stand it, can't take it, and much as he knows George needs this, he just can't. There isn't a thing in the world that'd get him to abandon George, so he won't Apparate away. Fred just needs to get outside and find fresh air - more useless, unnecessary and hurtful air - so he ( ... )

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a cup full of nothing for him to indulge - he feels alone; greding September 24 2011, 02:12:02 UTC
[George just stares is shock at the door where his twins stormed out only minutes ago. It takes him a moment before the rage boils over again and he finds himself racing after him, shouting after Fred's retreating back.]

Oi! Plonker! Where the blazes do you think you're going? You're the one you wanted to bloody TALK about this!

[God, why does Fred make him feel like this and then run away? George was perfectly willing to let this one go. Pass it off as another trick the City played on them. Have a cup of tea, or maybe something a bit stronger, to calm his nerves. Wait for his heart to start beating again, and move on. But no, Fred had to go in and POKE at it, they way he always had to go in and make a mess out of everything he did, leaving George standing there to pick up the pieces. He stops a few yards away from his twin, staring him down, waiting for an answer.]

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a cup full of nothing for him to indulge - he feels alone; feorging September 25 2011, 07:15:56 UTC
[It's all because he can't let it go. Not when he's kept up at night with the thought of it, kept conscious of the fact every time he's made aware his heart still isn't beating. He's hurt himself working a few times - he just heals right up as though nothing's happened. He can't just let it go because it won't bloody let him. The red spreads out to the tips of his hair, giving him back his Weasley flare and Merlin, does he wish there was more to break than just a chair.

Instead he inhales deeply at his brother's presence, feels him at his back like fire running along his spine, like cold air nipping at his neck, like that blasted wall coming apart before he's even got a chance to blink-.

Against all logic, Fred turns to face him, grey eyes brimming with colorless tears, just as biting and bitter and painful as the rest of it.]

What in the Hell am I supposed to say, Georgie? You said it yourself - I've died. What more is there?

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a cup full of nothing for him to indulge - he feels alone; greding September 26 2011, 14:25:59 UTC
I don't know either, Fred. I just... I really don't know.

[He can't stand to look at his brother this way, so instead his grabs him roughly and pulls him into a bone-crushing hug. Yes, he's colder than he should be and George's heart is still the only one banging away between them, but he's still here. Why can't Fred understand this. This is enough for them. There will be a time when one of them will have to leave, but until that moment things are so much BETTER here than they had been at home and George just wants to cling to it as hard as he can and never let go.]

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a cup full of nothing for him to indulge - he feels alone; feorging September 27 2011, 07:10:20 UTC
[Well, that's just it, isn't it? The hug says it all. For the first few moments, Fred's arms hang limp at his sides as George hugs him, because he is never more self conscious of his lack of heartbeat than the moments when his brother is so close to him - but he's always close to him. Always there beside him, in every waking and sleeping moment when Fred's lying awake at night, staring into the depths of the ceiling as George breaths evenly, worlds away and peaceful and whole and every bloody breath is just one more stab at the fact this won't last forever.

He's here and they're together and everything should be brilliant but it isn't and that hurts.

So Fred doesn't hug him back, not right away. He's too busy trying to swallow down his anger, trying to stop the guilt from tearing them both apart, but it only lasts just a few seconds before an overwhelming grief takes control and he's clinging right back. Grief, because he's lost, been lost, lost to the universe save for this one pin-prick in time and space where two brothers, two ( ... )

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a cup full of nothing for him to indulge - he feels alone; greding September 27 2011, 22:57:19 UTC
[George squeezes his brother closer. You're lucky you don't have to breath any more, Fred, because he would be making it very difficult for you.

Then again if he still had to breathe...

George pulls away finally, running his hand over his face in an attempt to more subtly wipe away his tears.]

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a cup full of nothing for him to indulge - he feels alone; feorging September 28 2011, 21:27:41 UTC
[Fred doesn't bother with wiping anything away. They're there, the tears, but only in streaks down cheeks that've begun to flush in the same blotchy way that they always have, and always will. He doesn't bother, because he doesn't care. He's too upset, too angry, and just feeling out of his skin. There's a lot to be said, and he should say something, but he just...can't.]

Think I'll start on a new lot of Whiz-bangs today.

[A general statement, but also something of a warning. Loud and clear. He's not going anywhere today, and he's not seeing anyone either. Their room's not even quite the stronghold he'd like - it's not the same as their room - but at least he can surround himself in their work. That simple statement and a sidewards glance are all Fred can afford George before he's stepping around him back towards the cabin.]

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a cup full of nothing for him to indulge - he feels alone; greding September 28 2011, 23:03:53 UTC
[George watches him go, his hands shoved deep into his pockets. He's not sure what he expected to happen when he stormed out here after his brother but, well...

Anyway.

He scuffs the ground a little with his toe before heading back inside. He desperately needs a cup of tea right now. Maybe something even a bit stronger.]

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