May 28, 2010 10:08
Fuck the world. Fuck what we were stuck with. The deception, the underhandedness of the entire world, pulling themselves up by their own bootstraps while conveniently pushing everyone else down. Fuck this competitive economy, I don't want to be competitive. I would prefer not to have to compete with a list of other people, to see who can cut the best pizza, or build the best house, knowing that anything but the best is going to slide into financial distress. The luxury of the affluent is the sweat of the poor. I just saw men driving Mercedes-Benz cars while they paid their employees a quarter more than minimum wage, not even enough to ensure that the employee could do anything but break even in expenditure to payment.
Maybe some of us have a problem, which costs money to fix. How are we supposed to fix this problem when we can't get paid enough to save money? How is the world supposed to get better when the world isn't even allowing the entirety of the populous to better themselves? I drive a car which, at any moment, could get me a $100 ticket. I just got fired from my job for not keeping up with the rest of the employees in a system to which I was a total novice. Rather than give me warnings, or perhaps advance notice, instead this knowledge was kept secret, assumably to remove any impetus I might have to cause the company harm. That's funny, because they just caused me a lot of harm, by removing my main source of income without any warning. I could have spent last Friday searching for jobs. I could have been employed by now, which would make the transition much smoother. But instead, I am left with $500 to my name, and no job. Last time I was in this position, I has four times as much money, and that amount only lasted me until -exactly- when I got the job. Now, with insurance bills of $230 coming due very soon, and my only other source of income probably about to cease, I find myself in a quandry. Soon, I will not be able to go looking for jobs. Soon I will be once again limited to where I can walk.
I have gone from poor to poorer, while working forty hours a week. The job I got, and its low wage, have caused me to be in a worse financial position than when I started. I do not see a way through this. There is no magic fix job that will pay me ten dollars an hour. If I kept receiving money from my parfents, sure I could live, until that money stopped. But when that does stop, and stop it shall, I will be left without any income, and without any means whereby to secure this income. But I'm supposed to be competitive. I'm supposed to be a go-getter who takes life by the horns and steers its dick into my ass. It is simply ridiculous.
Is it too much to ask that I be paid a good enough wage to afford to set a little aside for the problems in my life? Is it too much to ask that after working at a job for a month, I be in a stronger financial position than the one in which I began? Is it too much to ask that the business world actually profit everyone involved, instead of just a select few? Is it too much to ask to be able to survive in this machine of a society which none of us had a hand in creating?
All I'm trying to do is survive. But I am not given the means whereby this cam happen. Sounds awfully familiar.