Flyin high....
....today was supposed to be a good day. I was back from my week long training course in Boston, Mass....my first time ever flying on a plane and being on my own with no family around, just co-workers. I was a big girl...not freaking out in the airplane when taking off...although if the turbulence kept up during then I might have. The landing wasn't so nice either, but overall I did good....I actually enjoyed the experience minus the security check ins and all that. The view above the clouds, looking down and seeing the blue skies meshing in with the sun was absolutely beautiful. And something I'll never forget.....being in Boston was great too, didn't get to see a whole lot but it was nice being out of Texas and some other place. It's a pretty time to be there with the fall colors in the trees and the cool weather....but I sort of did get a bit homesick, I guess that's normal for being away the first time. I missed my bed way too much and sleeping in too among other things!
So like I said today was supposed to be a good day, it was nice and sunny day outside in Houston, perfect for possible barbecue outside, hanging around with the family and sharing my experience with them. But then the morning comes and everything changes and I for one hate change, I love normalcy...it's safe and constant. First we find out that my brother-in-law's mom passed away Friday at midnight, a year after his dad passed too. And not to take anything away from his grief, but the next news we received was even more tragic.....one of my nephew's, my step-brother's second oldest son, died in a car accident Friday at midnight too, going home from work! He and his friend (whom he was giving a ride home to) both died instantly after colliding with another car.....it was such a bad accident that it will most likely be a closed casket funeral. How fucked up is that? This kid who I used to play hide-n-seek with....who used to stay over at my house all the time or vice versa....whom I grew up with....who is only three years younger than me.....who is leaving a beautiful 2 year old son behind.....has died. That is truly fucked up...I still can't believe it....I can't get my head around it. I keep thinking "not him".....now I don't want to be a big girl anymore. I want to be a kid again....a kid who doesn't know what death is....what loss means....how sore your eyes get from crying so much and how truly unfair the world is at times.
Today was supposed to be a good day. Take me back to Friday night but give me a different outcome. I was thinking back how beautiful the view was of the sky above the clouds, but as beautiful as it was....I selfishly prefer for him to be down here on land with us instead.
^ ^ ^ waiting to leave for Boston
^ ^ ^ fancy....Marriott Hotel
^ ^ ^ first morning in Boston
^ ^ ^ Burlington Road Mall
^ ^ ^ Friday...last day in Boston. It rained and was dreary....it should have been a sign....
^ ^ ^ on the road back to the airport to leave
R
I
P
even if it's a lie, say it will be alright
and I shall believe
+ + +
there it goes, up in the sky, there it goes
beyond the clouds for no reason why
So like I said today was supposed to be a good day, it was nice and sunny day outside in Houston, perfect for possible barbecue outside, hanging around with the family and sharing my experience with them. But then the morning comes and everything changes and I for one hate change, I love normalcy...it's safe and constant. First we find out that my brother-in-law's mom passed away Friday at midnight, a year after his dad passed too. And not to take anything away from his grief, but the next news we received was even more tragic.....one of my nephew's, my step-brother's second oldest son, died in a car accident Friday at midnight too, going home from work! He and his friend (whom he was giving a ride home to) both died instantly after colliding with another car.....it was such a bad accident that it will most likely be a closed casket funeral. How fucked up is that? This kid who I used to play hide-n-seek with....who used to stay over at my house all the time or vice versa....whom I grew up with....who is only three years younger than me.....who is leaving a beautiful 2 year old son behind.....has died. That is truly fucked up...I still can't believe it....I can't get my head around it. I keep thinking "not him".....now I don't want to be a big girl anymore. I want to be a kid again....a kid who doesn't know what death is....what loss means....how sore your eyes get from crying so much and how truly unfair the world is at times.
Today was supposed to be a good day. Take me back to Friday night but give me a different outcome. I was thinking back how beautiful the view was of the sky above the clouds, but as beautiful as it was....I selfishly prefer for him to be down here on land with us instead.
^ ^ ^ waiting to leave for Boston
^ ^ ^ fancy....Marriott Hotel
^ ^ ^ first morning in Boston
^ ^ ^ Burlington Road Mall
^ ^ ^ Friday...last day in Boston. It rained and was dreary....it should have been a sign....
^ ^ ^ on the road back to the airport to leave
R
I
P
even if it's a lie, say it will be alright
and I shall believe
+ + +
there it goes, up in the sky, there it goes
beyond the clouds for no reason why