-79- [So, so very text]

[greatlightother]

Damon's gone. My item isn't linked to him anymore and his room is empty. To any of his friends, I'm so, so sorry.

The Admiral is such a fickle creature. Almost a year. I can't even remember our first meeting. A year ago...what were you doing? Were you here on the barge? Back at home?

Happy?

[Private to O'Brien]

doubleplusungood comrade.

[Cue obscene

Comments

[stopthat_destro]

Oh no. One less murderous vampire. The Barge is a colder place without him.

[greatlightother]

Doctor Lewis. Please. Not today?

You can complain about it tomorrow, I promise.

I'm sorry, he's determined to spread misery until TRIGGER MONTH ends :c

[stopthat_destro]

I wasn't complaining; I'm ecstatic.

Shall I answer your question instead? A year ago, I was turned into a woman, attacked and abused by a vampire. I met you. This was back when you pretended to give half a damn about me, so I thought you were a nice person. Hmm. And, a year ago, I was accused of taking advantage of another inmate-- sexually-- and driving him to suicide through rampant homophobia. Ah, and of course, had Martha Jones spread these lies to complete strangers. So, a year ago, I was disrespected, violated and wasn't once given the benefit of the doubt. Six months ago, I was again-- but you remember that, I'm sure, since it involved your darling Damon. Judging by past experience, I'm due for another.

My, isn't reminiscing fun.

I'LL NEVER FORGIVE YOU

[greatlightother]

I never pretended anything. You decided to lump us all together as evil in your mind.

I won't argue with you, though. You can believe what you wish.

BAWWWW

[stopthat_destro]

Ah, you're right. Because you couldn't possibly have stepped in when Denise tried to lead a witch hunt against me to drive me out of the infirmary. Or given me the same credit you wardens give every other murder victim here when Damon killed me. How many times did I have to bring it up again because you all forgot?

I'm happy to believe what history supports to be true.

And by the way: Damon tried to kill me again not a few weeks before he left, so I think it's safe to say you were a wholly ineffectual warden. Perhaps the Admiral finally realized it.

[greatlightother]

Maybe, Rex. Maybe that's it.

So yeah, I should have said something about it. But I was here to help Damon and just because I didn't run to you and fawn over you for what he did doesn't make me a bad person. It doesn't mean that I didn't care. The fact that I didn't publicly beat Damon for your amusement doesn't mean that he went unpunished.

I'm sorry you're having a bad time, but that's no excuse to try and hurt me.

[stopthat_destro]

I didn't want you to fawn over me; I wanted you to listen! You didn't believe me until he confessed, a month after the fact! Which is how it's always gone-- 11-12, Denise, Damon, all of you dismissed me as a liar every time! That's what I have a problem with, but you and every other warden here like to belittle that and pretend I just want you to coddle me because it's easier to support your pathetic self righteousness!

All of you deserve to suffer. I hope the thought of how consistently you failed him keeps you up tonight.

[greatlightother]

Him? Or you? Because that's what this is about. I'm sorry you feel that way, Rex. Nothing I say or do will change your thinking. So I have to guess that you're just trying to jump on a bad situation to make it worse.

I'm sorry, also, you feel you have to do that.

But I can't change the past.

[stopthat_destro]

Don't apologize for how I feel unless you're honestly willing to admit your part in it. It's just a disingenuous tactic you wardens use to keep others thinking you're so kind and compassionate.

Of course you can't. But it won't change anything in the future, either, should something happen again. Let's hope your next assignment is somebody you can actually keep in line, for the safety of others. [I.E. MEEEEE. Because he doesn't really care about others.]

[greatlightother]

I told you I did. I told you that you were right. I should have said something. And yet you don't believe me. Again, something I can't change.

[stopthat_destro]

Probably because you coupled that admission with an accusation that I wanted you to fawn all over me-- so thank you for dismissing the trauma of that situation to call me a needy child.

[greatlightother]

[Few strikeouts before she figures...she might as well stop trying.]

What has this gained you, Rex? This...little exchange? Do you feel better? Do you feel vindicated?

I'm glad to help.

[stopthat_destro]

Not everything I do is a calculated attack, difficult as that is for you to believe. Sometimes, I simply enjoy expressing my hatred for the rest of you pathetic, two-faced wardens. Small pleasures.

[greatlightother]

Have a good day, Rex.