there is nothing like love unrequited...
I have recently met someone who has had a major impact on my life and my outlook. This person will probably never know exactly how much or even how they have affected me but perhaps that is for the best. People are often impressed by acts of heroism or vast intellect or superior physical prowess. We laud those who achieve the extraordinary, not those that excel at the ordinary. Well, she is extraordinary in her accomplishments of the ordinary. She is a single mother of 3. She is the primary care for the trio. She is partners in a successful business. She makes some time for herself. For these things she gets no recognition, no pat on the back. She gets Kudos from me.
Now as to the topic. Of course this person would have to enter my life at a time when all circumstances make it the most horrible thing that could have happened. I find myself attracted to her but she is now in the "maybe we can work it out" phase of a previous relationship with a man who by all accounts is very nice and has the potential to be very good for her. I have tried my best to stay completely neutral in this whole thing as I do not want to influence it in any way. I try my best to let her make up her mind without any input from me in regard to it. For that I am a "friend" and I guess I should be glad of it. The bottom line is that I cannot be honest about the way I feel AND do what I think is right in being her friend. In my defense, when we started talking in depth this man was "out of the picture" but now he has come back. She says that she is confused and does not know what she should do but I cannot be the one to influence her. It would not be right. She has told me that if he makes her choose between dating him and remaining friends with me then she will be done with him. I guess I should just be lucky that she is not aware of this LJ and glad that I have a place to vent these frustrations. I should cherish the friendship and be thankful that I know someone so wonderful but I find it hard when I am at war with myself. Oh well... just another day...
Now as to the topic. Of course this person would have to enter my life at a time when all circumstances make it the most horrible thing that could have happened. I find myself attracted to her but she is now in the "maybe we can work it out" phase of a previous relationship with a man who by all accounts is very nice and has the potential to be very good for her. I have tried my best to stay completely neutral in this whole thing as I do not want to influence it in any way. I try my best to let her make up her mind without any input from me in regard to it. For that I am a "friend" and I guess I should be glad of it. The bottom line is that I cannot be honest about the way I feel AND do what I think is right in being her friend. In my defense, when we started talking in depth this man was "out of the picture" but now he has come back. She says that she is confused and does not know what she should do but I cannot be the one to influence her. It would not be right. She has told me that if he makes her choose between dating him and remaining friends with me then she will be done with him. I guess I should just be lucky that she is not aware of this LJ and glad that I have a place to vent these frustrations. I should cherish the friendship and be thankful that I know someone so wonderful but I find it hard when I am at war with myself. Oh well... just another day...