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wow yes it has been seriously like a month and kevin is like obsessed with me updating. he's been saying something for like 2 days haha. lets try to backtrack. im gona start with the wednesday before the cruise. wednesday..flight gets delayed. we leave phily 1230am get to orlando at 3. it took an hour to get the car..then we drove to fort myers. where i slept all thursday morning, showered, ate and then went back to sleep for like 5 hours then we went to dinner. fun stuff. friday i slept all day again. sat i laid in the sun and got my stuff ready for sun morning. we left for lauderdale sunday morning..took about 2 hours..finally got to the ship. Carnival Legend 2005 spring break babyy. yeah soo. we get on the ship and go to our rooms, had lunch then the cool lifeboat drill. got ready for dinnnner, it was good. then unpacked and went to the disco. met bailey jocelyn steve cameron and tiff. fun people. mondayy was cloudy and windy but i still laid out. totally burnt lol. then found bailey and jocelyn justin and then met douglas. oh whatt a joy. it was formal night. after dinner he followed me around and kept like hugging me. im like dude get offf. finally i saw steve and he saved me from going insane. we hung out wiht cam and tiff, took some pics, then dancedd. we all got changed, then danced some more. walked outside and me n steve went to the comedy. back to the disco we went. tuesday woo. whatta day. i dont recall what i did during the day..sat around with steve cam and tiff. then dinner at 545. afterwards..went upstairs to eat with cam and tiff. across from us sat a guy with alot of food and a guy in an orange shirt. interesting bc it was tuesday and i hadnt noticed them before. welpp. the 3 of us went to the teen disco. in walks the boy in the orange shirt and sits by himself. i whisper something to cam about him bc he talked to him before. 10 min later..he came over and introduced himself as travis. yeahh he was a cutiee. but i didnt say so yett. his friend .. alex.. came in. and a loud girl randi haha i loved her she was so outgoing. well..we all wind up later going up to get more food. yea dont ask haha. we sat up there and talked and stuff. about swimming with fish and cheese goat pizza. funniest thing. "how about that cheese goat pizza?" "CHEESE GOAT? WHAT? you mean GOAT CHEESE?" omggg soo funy. afterwards we went back to the other disco...i tried getin alex to dance. it wasnt happening...welll i got travis out ther for a litle while. good jobb lol. we went outside at some point. wed was st. maarten. i was supposed to go swimming with the fishes with the boys and take pics BUT they went to a diffrent beach and alex's fam didnt bring the camera. i heard he was mad haha. i laid on the beach all day then skipped dinner. showered..got ready..walked around aimlessly around 730. found travis with the youngerrr kids..headed the arcade where i fell in love with the snowmobile game. omgg some intense races. we headed to the disco for a little while and then back to the arcade. and walked around like usual. me and travis wound up sitting in the unicorn place for hours talking..it was funn. then we went back to the arcade where we had a few intense races of snowmobiles. and .. surprise! it was a goood surprise, a romantic moment lol :) barbados laid on the beach and drankk. yeaaa. holla at the boatyard. sweet ass beach bar. then i skipped outta dinner again and met up with the boyyys. went to the disco, woooo i got him to danceee yeaaa. im soo cool like that. then various places likee enchanted forest and arcade. and some of the our spots we'd go too. good stuff. martinique i didnt even get off the boat. the boys slept all day i found them around 230, eating lol. umm i guess we spent the time in the arcade..and t he piano lounge, had cheesecake aha then went to get gum haha. afterwards i went to dinner, then everyone went to late dinner til what time..yes 10:00. then me and travis went to get pics, went back to the disco and went to the talent show. met up with everyone on the way out and almost missed the best part haha it was soo funny. then went off by oursleves again. met up with them later in the arcade probably. day at sea. wellll i had to wake the gang up at 130. come on now...you guys sleep too long. then wewalked aroiund, ate, wen to the gym. "if i was a rich girl..lalalalalalala" haha lmaoo alex is soo funny. we walked around, it was formal night again. i went to dinner then met up with travis afterwards for pics and then the late dinner. it was travis me travis alex abby emily and ryan. fun timess. what happened? we were outa dinner at 915. lol. went to the disco then got changed and went outside and stufffff. everyone went to the comedy and we sat upstairs and talked again. sooo fun. we were winding down the days :( sunday i woke him up at 1130...alex was still sleeping. and i laid out for 2 hours since somebody decided to take a 2 hour nap. i bought our pics and then we just sat around, in the buffet, in the piano lounge, in my room. i went to the last dinner. aww the waiters sang to us.. it was so sad i started crying. after dinner i went and packed then went down to the last disco. a buncha people were standing outside...travis skipped outa dinner earllly. i ran outa camera batteries. we went to get more then back to the disco. danced a last time in a disco :'(. then sat in the piano lounge for like an hour with a group of people doing nothing lol. went up to play capture the flag, i sucked at the game. i didnt talk most of the night. too upset. and i was freeeeezing. then we played a pointless game of hide and seek. then travis and me left everyone for awhile, and i got to do what i wanted to do for a long time. alot of people are about kissing in the rain...no..man i wana dance under the stars and i came up with a way to do it. ipods. great things. yeahh it was so sad...i never wanted to leave that moment with you..and i wouldnt have if it was warmer. we sat for awhile and then i went to bed. i never wanted the night to end, but unfortunately it did. yes it ended with me crying. people may ask why....but no one will understand. monday back to lauderdale...i could barely eat my food. i sat there, waiting for our deck to be called. finally when it was we were the last of our deck to be off the boat (thank god) then as we were standing in the customs line...travis and alex walked off too. :'( saying goodbye was the hardest thing i think ive ever done. i almost fell down the escalator. i sat in the airport for 3 hours then texted with travis for hours. finally i got home to my bed. it was one unforgettable vacation, best time ever. back to school all week, a bunch of crappy tests. then i stayed home that weekend and drank. i spent all of time talking to travis. friday i worked and saturday i drank here with gilroy, julie, yager and ray, playing ring of fire. then max and bob came. then gav, joe, greg, and some other dude came for like 15 min then left. school all last week sucked. planning for prom and shit. friday i went to school, got my hair & makeup done, then came home and got ready. met everyone at kim's house...got pics. gav looked good. too bad i didnt see him most of the night. then we got the limo back to kims. we killed a bottle of 99 apples then the night just sucked big time. went to bed at 6, woke up at 715. then my mom picked us up, we dropped off gav and joe and picked up max and jul then went to the shore. ray and max went with my dad, me jul and gilroy with my mom, steph bob and kim with stephs mom. we went to sams pizza and had lunch, then went home and slept, showred, watched tv, played games, all day..gilroy and kim crashed at 930. then the 6 of us watched the fast and the furious, and i fell asleep. soo much fun stuff this weekend. sunday the boys left, we went up to the bw then to the beach..fun times girliess. we came home and i just chilled. talked to court..man i hate when people lie and one person makes lives a living hell. you're my girllll i <33 you. i got a surprise phone call from <333travis. good stuff then i went to bed. today was rough i hate school. blahh. i came home and slept and then just chilled. today really sucked. i just got off the phone with my babyy i miss him sooo much. i cant wait til summer. welp lax tomo..i leave you with one shout out to my babeeeee. travis : babe i seriously dont know what to do with myslef now that we're not together on a cruise. the times we had were amazing and i wouldnt trade them in for the world. im so happy that you came over to talk because i don know what i wouldadone the whole cruise if i hadnt met you. im so happy that i met you. you're such an awesome person and you're so fun to be around. i miss you so much. its unbelievable. random times of the day ( okay all day ) you're on my mindand i just think about the stuff we'd be doing at that time. from the moment you first kissed me after that snowmobile game..i thought ohh man ii like this guyy alot. talking with you and telling you my stories was great. you werent quick to judge me at all and i love that. from racing snowmobiles, to riding elevators, (getting stuck in one was scary though), to rubbing your arm or your hand or your leg and seeing you smile and laugh, to standing with you in the front of the boat, to dancing with you, to sitting in a booth for hours talking, to standing in the cold in your arms with you keeping me warm. i would do ANYTHING to be back there again, to be standing in your arms again. id do anything to be dancing with you under the stars again..to go back to those moments. i wanna see you smile again or say "ohmygodd" or "whattt" in that accent of yours. i had such an amazing time with you and i miss you more than anything. you better come visit me and we are never gona stop talking. id do anything to be back with you again. yes i cried the last night. ive never done that before..but i miss you more than anything right now. i couldnt help the tears. i wish i could see you right now, id do anything. thanks for the best time of my life, and you better come see me because i NEED to see you again. just take me back to my happy place. va and pa better not keep us apart. saying goodbye to you was the hardest thing i have ever done becuase of the times we spent. it was the hardest for me to say goodbye to you because i hate that we had to leave. i will NEVER forget those 5 days. you are my...."only one" xoxoxox
"i worry i wont see your face light up again. i somehow find you and i collide." xox-- travis i love you so much baby <33
this is long enough..hope you enjoyed... peace out kidds <33flood