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So Monday I got back from a fantastic trip with two of the greatest people i know: Versha and Katie-Sue. It was really just great. I went up to the Syracuse area on the 14th and hung out at Versha's. We went to the carnival that lives in her town year-round, had some dinner on the lake which was beautiful, and then had a sleepover with Katie-Sue and Versha's dogs. We also got to babysit Versha's adorable niece and nephew for a few hours. Two of the cutest kids ever.
Saturday we left for DC and spent the night with Molly and had some dinner and saw some beautifully lit monuments. We spent Sunday in DC too which was really nice and walked to Georgetown at night.
Monday we went down to Hilton Head, South Carolina. We stayed with a friend of Molly's in the most amazing house in all of life. It was like a million dollar place to live and it was beautiful. We went to the beach and the water was pretty much like bath water. We found the Disney Vacation Club that is on the island and had Mickey Bars and watched people dance around the pool area and watched some fireworks, it was very magical and I was really happy to be alive that day.
Wednesday we went to Savanah where it downpoured, torrentially, for the entire day. It was still beautiful, just very wet. So we went back on Thursday and re-toured it and had a wonderful evening finished off by attempting to sneak into a graveyard which was unsuccessful. Apparently Savanah is one of the most haunted cities in the country. Sweet.
Friday we just hung around the house, went swimming and out to dinner and then Saturday we went to Charleston which was also very beautiful... for some reason I can't remember what we did there...oh yeah, we went to a planatation, the oldest working plantation in the country and its also the only place in the country that still has a slave road. It was really beautiful there. Then we got some dinner and attempted to take a walking tour which was broken up by a cute little store that had $5 earings. So i talked to the cashire for about 1.5 hours while Katie-Sue and Versha bought earings. We talked everything music and it was wonderful because he was also obsessed with David Bowie. I just wanted to talk to him forever. He had the most interesting life so far. All I know is that his name is Joe, he is 46, and he moved to Charleston after going there for a dinner party and falling in love with it. I can understand why.
Sunday we went to Mass in SC and drove back up to DC. Monday we had lunch with Molly at the Supreme Court and got a super-special private tour where we got to go into the court and like walk around and stuff. They have a gym there and the basketball court was built above the Supreme Court and so everyone there calls it "the highest court in the land" ah ah ah. Then we headed back up to CT and arrived at my house.
Katie-Sue and Versha stayed Tuesday and we went to Danny's and had some burgers and kielbasa. It was very nice.
Its always really weird when you spend a good amount of time in a group or just with other people and then you're not with them anymore, its such a weird feeling. This happens all the time after like retreats, or Appalachia, or Avalon, NJ.
The thing that was kind of annoying while i was down in SC was that i thought my outlook on life would improve because I wasn't at home and its usually home that brings me down, but starting in March my mood has just been down down down and i can't shake it. It started after Spring Break and its just annoying me now. I hope it improves by the time i get to Maine, or at least once I get to Maine... i just feel really blank, like I have fun and i love spending time with my friends but theres always this overlaying feeling of rather not existing or something. I don't know how to go about explaining it. And i think this might be a very normal feeling or thought process so I don't think I am some kind of isolated case or something, I just wish it would go away for good. I think i would be a lot better off if i put more effort into my prayer life because Junior year was the most devout I have ever been and it was also the happiest I have ever been, there was not a time that I ever didn't want to be alive, I just really loved every second of life and I can definately tell the difference in my attitude and how i treat others from then until now and I just liked everything better last year but I dunno. Part of me is being stubborn because last year my mom wasn't retired so I could be as religious as I wanted without her being nosy about it and now that she's home 24/7 she knows everything I do and I like my praying to be separate from her and I don't know why, but I havn't been going to daily Mass because its hard for me to go with her and I know its stupid but I just don't like being open with her esp about my faith, I think its because she's always so critical about everything and this is one thing that I don't want to let her critique, even though she and I are the same religion and she and I have similar views on a lot of things, I just feel like whenever I talk to her about something or she finds out things about me. it automatically becomes critiqued and thats just tiring and I don't want to have to feel guarded about this, even though I guess by not going to Mass like I usually would, I'm being guarded anyway... I don't know... i just feel ridiculous all the time and there is nothing about myself that I can speak positivly of at this moment and thats frustrating. oh well i think it will start picking up soon.
Oh, good news, I watched A Goofy Movie today, which I have been meaning to watch for about 4 years... it was alright, it was basically exatly what I would expect so I wasn't super impressed or disappointed at all. And now I won't feel silly for knowing all the words to all the songs having never seen the movie... sweet.
My cousin Lori is having a bridal shower tomorrow night... I have never heard of a bridal shower on a Friday night... strange. Its also Hawaiian themed and I have one flowery dress that I guess I will wear but i don't think my mom likes it so I'm dredding the moment I walk out of my room to leave and my mom tells me how terrible it looks and I am stuck trying to find something to wear in 2 minutes because I didn't find out about this thing until yesterday.. oh well...
Saturday we left for DC and spent the night with Molly and had some dinner and saw some beautifully lit monuments. We spent Sunday in DC too which was really nice and walked to Georgetown at night.
Monday we went down to Hilton Head, South Carolina. We stayed with a friend of Molly's in the most amazing house in all of life. It was like a million dollar place to live and it was beautiful. We went to the beach and the water was pretty much like bath water. We found the Disney Vacation Club that is on the island and had Mickey Bars and watched people dance around the pool area and watched some fireworks, it was very magical and I was really happy to be alive that day.
Wednesday we went to Savanah where it downpoured, torrentially, for the entire day. It was still beautiful, just very wet. So we went back on Thursday and re-toured it and had a wonderful evening finished off by attempting to sneak into a graveyard which was unsuccessful. Apparently Savanah is one of the most haunted cities in the country. Sweet.
Friday we just hung around the house, went swimming and out to dinner and then Saturday we went to Charleston which was also very beautiful... for some reason I can't remember what we did there...oh yeah, we went to a planatation, the oldest working plantation in the country and its also the only place in the country that still has a slave road. It was really beautiful there. Then we got some dinner and attempted to take a walking tour which was broken up by a cute little store that had $5 earings. So i talked to the cashire for about 1.5 hours while Katie-Sue and Versha bought earings. We talked everything music and it was wonderful because he was also obsessed with David Bowie. I just wanted to talk to him forever. He had the most interesting life so far. All I know is that his name is Joe, he is 46, and he moved to Charleston after going there for a dinner party and falling in love with it. I can understand why.
Sunday we went to Mass in SC and drove back up to DC. Monday we had lunch with Molly at the Supreme Court and got a super-special private tour where we got to go into the court and like walk around and stuff. They have a gym there and the basketball court was built above the Supreme Court and so everyone there calls it "the highest court in the land" ah ah ah. Then we headed back up to CT and arrived at my house.
Katie-Sue and Versha stayed Tuesday and we went to Danny's and had some burgers and kielbasa. It was very nice.
Its always really weird when you spend a good amount of time in a group or just with other people and then you're not with them anymore, its such a weird feeling. This happens all the time after like retreats, or Appalachia, or Avalon, NJ.
The thing that was kind of annoying while i was down in SC was that i thought my outlook on life would improve because I wasn't at home and its usually home that brings me down, but starting in March my mood has just been down down down and i can't shake it. It started after Spring Break and its just annoying me now. I hope it improves by the time i get to Maine, or at least once I get to Maine... i just feel really blank, like I have fun and i love spending time with my friends but theres always this overlaying feeling of rather not existing or something. I don't know how to go about explaining it. And i think this might be a very normal feeling or thought process so I don't think I am some kind of isolated case or something, I just wish it would go away for good. I think i would be a lot better off if i put more effort into my prayer life because Junior year was the most devout I have ever been and it was also the happiest I have ever been, there was not a time that I ever didn't want to be alive, I just really loved every second of life and I can definately tell the difference in my attitude and how i treat others from then until now and I just liked everything better last year but I dunno. Part of me is being stubborn because last year my mom wasn't retired so I could be as religious as I wanted without her being nosy about it and now that she's home 24/7 she knows everything I do and I like my praying to be separate from her and I don't know why, but I havn't been going to daily Mass because its hard for me to go with her and I know its stupid but I just don't like being open with her esp about my faith, I think its because she's always so critical about everything and this is one thing that I don't want to let her critique, even though she and I are the same religion and she and I have similar views on a lot of things, I just feel like whenever I talk to her about something or she finds out things about me. it automatically becomes critiqued and thats just tiring and I don't want to have to feel guarded about this, even though I guess by not going to Mass like I usually would, I'm being guarded anyway... I don't know... i just feel ridiculous all the time and there is nothing about myself that I can speak positivly of at this moment and thats frustrating. oh well i think it will start picking up soon.
Oh, good news, I watched A Goofy Movie today, which I have been meaning to watch for about 4 years... it was alright, it was basically exatly what I would expect so I wasn't super impressed or disappointed at all. And now I won't feel silly for knowing all the words to all the songs having never seen the movie... sweet.
My cousin Lori is having a bridal shower tomorrow night... I have never heard of a bridal shower on a Friday night... strange. Its also Hawaiian themed and I have one flowery dress that I guess I will wear but i don't think my mom likes it so I'm dredding the moment I walk out of my room to leave and my mom tells me how terrible it looks and I am stuck trying to find something to wear in 2 minutes because I didn't find out about this thing until yesterday.. oh well...