Aug 08, 2006 22:54
Last month my paid subscription came due as well as my extra userpics and whatnot. I re-upped for another year, but did so without any sort of direction or purpose for this thing called 'blog'. While I have not been a typical prolific poster for quite some time, this thing does give me an outlet of sorts. More to the point, it is also a window into many peoples' lives and activities, many of whom I consider close friends. In recent months, this has mostly been a record of my Mom's declining health. While glum at times, it is also been a glimpse into who she was. In here, she lives on in a way. This is only a good thing, at least to me.
I am mostly an intensely private person. This begs the question, what does someone so allegedly private need a blog for? A conundrum: a private person's life as an open book. I did not need to update my paid status here for the basic features, but for the extra stuff that would come in handy should I take off with this thing once more. Will it happen? I dont know yet. My future of late is full of questions and voids. I am not sure what the upcoming days will bring, but just in case, I have this outpost to call my own. I feel extraordinarily alone and broken at times, but I still manage to get through the days. I hope to find myself once again, and just maybe my journal will be of some assistance. After all, I have connected with some of the coolest people on the planet via this thing, and that alone is a candle in my current darkness.
Thanks for being my light.
lj