jesus
so you know im writing this to you because your there.
first i just wanna to say im really stressed out and on top of that im all alone right now so im feeling all fucking emotional. but i really do mean all this im about to say, and im balling as write it, i cant stop and im sorry, so it doesnt matter.
2 people have made the biggest influence on my life. obviously you know who the other one is besides you. but you are the reason i am who i am today. now i know that i haven't influenced or inspired you as much as you have me, but thats ok, im used to not being anything out of the ordinary. its like your apart of me, and its gonna be hard to live without that part of me anymore because it might be my favorite part. you are the ONLY one who keeps me sane.
im not sad about the past, memories are memories and there is nothing you can do to change them or bring them back thats why they're memories. im upset that we will not be able to create new ones... its gonna be so hard here without you.
when you and eddie got together, you changed a lot. both of you did. not in a bad way, it was just something i had to get used to. but i understood it because i did the same exact thing to you with jesse. but i respected that you changed so much. it almost worked out for the better when i thought he would be the reason for you to stay. but apparently he nor i can even do that. i missed you senoir year, and i've been wanting to say that for a long time now. i almost had the same ol brittany back, but that'll change now too.
i know you're really strong, eddie and i both do, you dont have to act even stronger to make youself feel better. however that is one of the reasons i admire you soo much and hopefully one of the things that has rubbed off on me the most.
you know me better then anyone else. i can say anything in the world and you'll understand it. you ALWAYS know what im talking about and what i mean when i say things. your one of the best people ive ever met, but dont let that go to your head, it doesnt need to.
your prolly the coolest, selfish, smartest, ambituious, confident, strongest, independent, stubborn, funniest, beautiful, admirable, critical, secretive, easy going person i have and will ever meet. you thinks your right about everything but your not (no your not) and you change your mind too much. you really are bi polar sometimes. no, im serious you are.
i've had some of the funnest times of my life with you. i love you soo much. really, i do.
it hurts me sooo bad that your leaving, but i want you to be happy. and im so proud of you, even if what you are doing doesnt seem like the right thing to do at the moment, you know it will be later. and i hope to GOD we can get through this, just going off of what we've been through in the past.
i hope you love me just as much, but if you dont it doesnt even matter, because no matter how much i have ever gotten upset or angry with you, i still love you just the same. you are the best friend i have ever had and ever will have. when you leave, thats it for me. i have no other best friends. none of them even compare to you.
you've always talked about your old life in philadelphia, and how you miss it, and all the people you wish you could see again, and it always kinda made me sad because you would rather be there then here with me. and now your going back to that life which i hope is good for again, but i also hope youll make your friends there think you had a blast here. they werent forgotten, i dont want to be either...
about a month or so ago, i was going through all my shit and looking at all my old best friends... michelle, alycia, nicole, jenny, ashlee, and so the motherfuckin list goes on.. but then i started thinking about us and how we were going to be friends forever and never loose touch or change too much. but i dont even know anymore because i said that about all of them too. i just hope im right and everything will be ok.
ive never really cried over a friend leaving or me leaving them, but when you told me that the other night, i was a mess. i still am, but all these words are like relief to me now.
ive never known anyone like you, and never will. you're the best person i have met, and i couldnt be happier to have had you in my life. this kills me inside, but i have no choice but to let go. ill always be here, right here in tucson waiting for you to come home. even if you never come, ill still wait.
im really proud of you, you have so much ambition, and you have the world ahead of you. all i can say is dont blow it away on loving some guy, i know your smart but its easy. yeah i would know.
you really are one of the best people i've ever met. whether you feel the same way or not, i just want you to know that.
good luck with everything, and ill be waiting for you...
love you,
elisha moose
first i just wanna to say im really stressed out and on top of that im all alone right now so im feeling all fucking emotional. but i really do mean all this im about to say, and im balling as write it, i cant stop and im sorry, so it doesnt matter.
2 people have made the biggest influence on my life. obviously you know who the other one is besides you. but you are the reason i am who i am today. now i know that i haven't influenced or inspired you as much as you have me, but thats ok, im used to not being anything out of the ordinary. its like your apart of me, and its gonna be hard to live without that part of me anymore because it might be my favorite part. you are the ONLY one who keeps me sane.
im not sad about the past, memories are memories and there is nothing you can do to change them or bring them back thats why they're memories. im upset that we will not be able to create new ones... its gonna be so hard here without you.
when you and eddie got together, you changed a lot. both of you did. not in a bad way, it was just something i had to get used to. but i understood it because i did the same exact thing to you with jesse. but i respected that you changed so much. it almost worked out for the better when i thought he would be the reason for you to stay. but apparently he nor i can even do that. i missed you senoir year, and i've been wanting to say that for a long time now. i almost had the same ol brittany back, but that'll change now too.
i know you're really strong, eddie and i both do, you dont have to act even stronger to make youself feel better. however that is one of the reasons i admire you soo much and hopefully one of the things that has rubbed off on me the most.
you know me better then anyone else. i can say anything in the world and you'll understand it. you ALWAYS know what im talking about and what i mean when i say things. your one of the best people ive ever met, but dont let that go to your head, it doesnt need to.
your prolly the coolest, selfish, smartest, ambituious, confident, strongest, independent, stubborn, funniest, beautiful, admirable, critical, secretive, easy going person i have and will ever meet. you thinks your right about everything but your not (no your not) and you change your mind too much. you really are bi polar sometimes. no, im serious you are.
i've had some of the funnest times of my life with you. i love you soo much. really, i do.
it hurts me sooo bad that your leaving, but i want you to be happy. and im so proud of you, even if what you are doing doesnt seem like the right thing to do at the moment, you know it will be later. and i hope to GOD we can get through this, just going off of what we've been through in the past.
i hope you love me just as much, but if you dont it doesnt even matter, because no matter how much i have ever gotten upset or angry with you, i still love you just the same. you are the best friend i have ever had and ever will have. when you leave, thats it for me. i have no other best friends. none of them even compare to you.
you've always talked about your old life in philadelphia, and how you miss it, and all the people you wish you could see again, and it always kinda made me sad because you would rather be there then here with me. and now your going back to that life which i hope is good for again, but i also hope youll make your friends there think you had a blast here. they werent forgotten, i dont want to be either...
about a month or so ago, i was going through all my shit and looking at all my old best friends... michelle, alycia, nicole, jenny, ashlee, and so the motherfuckin list goes on.. but then i started thinking about us and how we were going to be friends forever and never loose touch or change too much. but i dont even know anymore because i said that about all of them too. i just hope im right and everything will be ok.
ive never really cried over a friend leaving or me leaving them, but when you told me that the other night, i was a mess. i still am, but all these words are like relief to me now.
ive never known anyone like you, and never will. you're the best person i have met, and i couldnt be happier to have had you in my life. this kills me inside, but i have no choice but to let go. ill always be here, right here in tucson waiting for you to come home. even if you never come, ill still wait.
im really proud of you, you have so much ambition, and you have the world ahead of you. all i can say is dont blow it away on loving some guy, i know your smart but its easy. yeah i would know.
you really are one of the best people i've ever met. whether you feel the same way or not, i just want you to know that.
good luck with everything, and ill be waiting for you...
love you,
elisha moose