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i dont understand how something like this can effect me so much.
it makes me understand so much more and how things can happen and effect your life so much. you never think something so bad would actuall happen to you but it can. it prepares you for things that will happen later. it happens to all of us. no matter how old we are, no matter how nice we are, no matter what we do for people, or how many people actually like you. or how many friends you have. to the best of us and the worst of us. everyone dies. everyone. and it's hard for the ones who have survived.
hold whoever you love the most close to you because you really dont know what is going to happen within hours, days, weeks, or months. you never know. just live in the moment. dont hold grudges and just be happy. but even being the happiest person all the time, being so nice to everyone and just being so genuine, doesnt mean you will live forever.
and its werid when you barely know someone. its feels like its so much better that way though. she used to walk past me in gym class and say hi to me. she was always happy, always. she made everyone happy. i remember watching her hug everyone.
rest in peace heather.