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please beat me with a club. i've been playing tibia way too much. no homework ever gets done, i never sleep, and now my diet is starting to suck ass.
fucking evil tibia.
theres been something really bothering me lately. i'm not really sure how to say and, and i've been lingering to speak of it for some time now.
i love dylan. he loves me. but sometimes we fight... way too much. he always says we'll be together forever becuase we are soul mates, and becuase we are so strong, but sometimes, the fighting just doesn't let me see that.
and i think he has been getting the impression that i don't want to be with him anymore, sexually. yeah, a few times lately i've turned it down. i don't really know why, maybe i'm just really not in the mood. the first few times i said no, he would ask me why, and a few times he did ask me if i wasn't turned on by him anymore. now he just gets a hurt look on his face. i start to apologize, and i feel bad, but he always says he understands, and that its my choice, but i can tell its really bringing him down.
why is it i'm turning him down so often? in fact, we havn't had sex for longer then a month. and thats alot for us. maybe the chemistry is wearing off. maybe we are just... slowing down. i really don't want it to happen. i loved our moments together like that, and i want i tto be like it was in the early days of our relationship.
eh..
fucking evil tibia.
theres been something really bothering me lately. i'm not really sure how to say and, and i've been lingering to speak of it for some time now.
i love dylan. he loves me. but sometimes we fight... way too much. he always says we'll be together forever becuase we are soul mates, and becuase we are so strong, but sometimes, the fighting just doesn't let me see that.
and i think he has been getting the impression that i don't want to be with him anymore, sexually. yeah, a few times lately i've turned it down. i don't really know why, maybe i'm just really not in the mood. the first few times i said no, he would ask me why, and a few times he did ask me if i wasn't turned on by him anymore. now he just gets a hurt look on his face. i start to apologize, and i feel bad, but he always says he understands, and that its my choice, but i can tell its really bringing him down.
why is it i'm turning him down so often? in fact, we havn't had sex for longer then a month. and thats alot for us. maybe the chemistry is wearing off. maybe we are just... slowing down. i really don't want it to happen. i loved our moments together like that, and i want i tto be like it was in the early days of our relationship.
eh..