Feeling weird, feeling down
Feeling oh so screwed up.
Hating the way I feel, hating that I feel it at all.
I hate the way you treated me, I hate the way you lied. I hate that you still haven't apologized to me, the way you act like I'm to blame. I hate the way you manipulated me. I hate that you can still smile in the wake of it all. I hate the way you're always around, even when the room is empty. I hate the way you make my heart ache when I least expect it, even when I think I'm beyond it aching. I hate the way I miss you, the way it seems like there can never truly be another. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.
I feel a little like dying. =/
And here I was naive enough to think I was past all this.
Tonight's going to be quite a long night.
Hating the way I feel, hating that I feel it at all.
I hate the way you treated me, I hate the way you lied. I hate that you still haven't apologized to me, the way you act like I'm to blame. I hate the way you manipulated me. I hate that you can still smile in the wake of it all. I hate the way you're always around, even when the room is empty. I hate the way you make my heart ache when I least expect it, even when I think I'm beyond it aching. I hate the way I miss you, the way it seems like there can never truly be another. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.
I feel a little like dying. =/
And here I was naive enough to think I was past all this.
Tonight's going to be quite a long night.