What should have been said earlier

[grazdreg]

I've been a bastard recently, I know it. worse, I've been a bastard to some of the people I care about most. I'm an awfull excuse for a human being, and the fact I havn't seen anyone since sunday (had a chest infection when I woke up monday) except my family hasn't helped matters. In facy I've barely  manage to put up with everything the last few days, and what little I've said (see comments on Jonni's post) I've usually ended up kicking myself about as well. what annoys me even more is that it doesn't seem I'm not going to see anyone before I go off to spain saturday, so I won't be able to make it up to anyone before the holidays =(.

Well.. I'm sorry. I've said it before, but it seems that it's gone unheeded, so I'll say it again

Hopefully I won't go mad before I see any of you again. don't bet money on it though ^^