I hate to break this to you but being a coward is not a legitimate career
hmm, i didn't think i could get so worn out from sitting at home alone doing nothing all weekend. we don't even have a tv (yet).
anyways, fuck this town. figures i'd have to come back for an extra semester.
here's a song i've been vegging on lately:
The Spill Canvas - "Self-Conclusion"
Fade in, start the scene
Enter beautiful girl
But things are not what they seem
As we stand at the edge of the world
"Excuse me, sir,
But I have plans to die tonight
Oh, and you are directly in my way
And I bet you're gonna say it's not right"
My reply:
"Excuse me, miss
But do you have the slightest clue
Of exactly what you just said to me
And exactly who you're talking to?"
She said, "I don't care, you don't even know me"
I said, "I know but I'd like to change that soon, hopefully"
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self-conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
"You make it sound so easy to be alive
But tell me, how am I supposed to seize this day
When everything inside of me has died?"
My reply:
"Trust me, girl
I know your legs are pleading to leap
But I offer you this easy choice-
Instead of dying, living with me"
She said, "Are you crazy? You don't even know me."
I said, "I know, but I'd like to change that soon hopefully"
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self-conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
"I would be lying if I said that things would never get rough
And all this cliche motivation, it could never be enough
I could stand here all night trying to convince you
But what good would that do?
My offer stands, and you must choose"
"All right, you win, but I only give you one night
To prove yourself to be better than my atttempt at flight
I swear to god if you hurt me I will leap
I will toss myself from these very cliffs
And you'll never see it coming"
"Settle, precious, I know what you're going through
Just ten minutes before you got here I was gonna jump too"
Yeah we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self-conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
i skated more today. started to get royales and unities (front and back). here's to stepping up my game. too bad my knee hurts...maybe i'll stick to park until it feels better. i think i'm going to try to skate the new conrete park tomorrow early since nobody will be there and i won't have to pay. i hope it works.
my internship has opened my eyes to how fucked up people can be to their children. i got to look through the case file of one client, and it really made me want to throw up. my life would be better if i saw the parents in jail for life. seeing that really made me think about going into clinical psych for kids, though. i enjoyed looking through the notes and seeing the process of evaluation and all of that. the prospect of doing that myself isn't bad, and i also want to help; i guess i'll see what happens in the coming months.
i started at the sheraton again this weekend, and now i'll be working front desk some of the time, which also means my pay is now $7/hour. not too bad.
ummmm i guess that's about it for now. i miss nancy.
edit: this is an interesting question i saw in the letters section in the springfield newspaper today:
"I would like to know why Congress would call an emergency session to re-insert Terri Schiavo's feeding tube, and not reconvene until four days after this disaster when thousands of American citizens have gone days without food or water?"
-Jim W., Springfield
anyways, fuck this town. figures i'd have to come back for an extra semester.
here's a song i've been vegging on lately:
The Spill Canvas - "Self-Conclusion"
Fade in, start the scene
Enter beautiful girl
But things are not what they seem
As we stand at the edge of the world
"Excuse me, sir,
But I have plans to die tonight
Oh, and you are directly in my way
And I bet you're gonna say it's not right"
My reply:
"Excuse me, miss
But do you have the slightest clue
Of exactly what you just said to me
And exactly who you're talking to?"
She said, "I don't care, you don't even know me"
I said, "I know but I'd like to change that soon, hopefully"
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self-conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
"You make it sound so easy to be alive
But tell me, how am I supposed to seize this day
When everything inside of me has died?"
My reply:
"Trust me, girl
I know your legs are pleading to leap
But I offer you this easy choice-
Instead of dying, living with me"
She said, "Are you crazy? You don't even know me."
I said, "I know, but I'd like to change that soon hopefully"
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self-conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
"I would be lying if I said that things would never get rough
And all this cliche motivation, it could never be enough
I could stand here all night trying to convince you
But what good would that do?
My offer stands, and you must choose"
"All right, you win, but I only give you one night
To prove yourself to be better than my atttempt at flight
I swear to god if you hurt me I will leap
I will toss myself from these very cliffs
And you'll never see it coming"
"Settle, precious, I know what you're going through
Just ten minutes before you got here I was gonna jump too"
Yeah we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self-conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
i skated more today. started to get royales and unities (front and back). here's to stepping up my game. too bad my knee hurts...maybe i'll stick to park until it feels better. i think i'm going to try to skate the new conrete park tomorrow early since nobody will be there and i won't have to pay. i hope it works.
my internship has opened my eyes to how fucked up people can be to their children. i got to look through the case file of one client, and it really made me want to throw up. my life would be better if i saw the parents in jail for life. seeing that really made me think about going into clinical psych for kids, though. i enjoyed looking through the notes and seeing the process of evaluation and all of that. the prospect of doing that myself isn't bad, and i also want to help; i guess i'll see what happens in the coming months.
i started at the sheraton again this weekend, and now i'll be working front desk some of the time, which also means my pay is now $7/hour. not too bad.
ummmm i guess that's about it for now. i miss nancy.
edit: this is an interesting question i saw in the letters section in the springfield newspaper today:
"I would like to know why Congress would call an emergency session to re-insert Terri Schiavo's feeding tube, and not reconvene until four days after this disaster when thousands of American citizens have gone days without food or water?"
-Jim W., Springfield