365/365 #9 - The Drawback of Fertility Education
I can't un-know
the things I know
but I wish I could.
I wish I could regress back
to before I knew what
might happen which day.
I don't want the burden
of counting days and knowing
all of what could be.
I don't actually know
a single useful thing, but
academics are bad enough.
“Knowing” knowing, I mean really
knowing, can't happen until
seven days pass, or five.
Truly knowing might not happpen
at all for ten days, or four
weeks after that. It is all gray.
Last month I didn't know
until after all the signs
came and went and came again.
I miss blithe ignorance
when I only felt my heart
sing-break-sing for three minutes.
I miss not knowing what was
or wasn't or might have been
happening until it was certain.
the things I know
but I wish I could.
I wish I could regress back
to before I knew what
might happen which day.
I don't want the burden
of counting days and knowing
all of what could be.
I don't actually know
a single useful thing, but
academics are bad enough.
“Knowing” knowing, I mean really
knowing, can't happen until
seven days pass, or five.
Truly knowing might not happpen
at all for ten days, or four
weeks after that. It is all gray.
Last month I didn't know
until after all the signs
came and went and came again.
I miss blithe ignorance
when I only felt my heart
sing-break-sing for three minutes.
I miss not knowing what was
or wasn't or might have been
happening until it was certain.