Thoughts.
It's funny to think that you never really realize how impossibly stupid you're acting until you look back on your past experiences and memories. In the moment of being that stupid, naive, little child, you're not aware that in a few years/months/weeks, you're going to look back and mentally give yourself a slap on the face. The saying goes, "we're all just going to look back on this day and laugh". For me, i look back on most of my days and want to hurt myself, but i have to go easy on myself and understand that i was nothing but a young, naive, little child. Basically unaware and uncaring of the world around me, trapped inside my own worries of always getting grounded and what the best movie is to see on friday night. Another thing that i often think about is how things seem to space out and eventually drift in middle school and then people in middle school aren't the people you do in high school. away. The people you loved and cared about in elementary school aren't the people you do And in some cases, by the point of high school, those you once knew as well as the best swing-seat at recess seem to be nonexistent. People seem to drift from you left and right. Their either too busy, or have changed drastically. The only thing that keeps your bond is a simple smile in the halls as you pass. What happens when you're taken away from those halls, thrown into a whole new place, with all new people? Well, you forget about those people completely and they forget about you. It's a sad thing to think about, and i often miss the people i once knew and the life that was simple and the little naive girl that was uncaring. I tend to care about things too much and usually leave myself in a mess of anxiety and depression. I guess what i need to do is forget about my worries, follow my heart, and care about the world. Because in the long run, if you don't, it will eat you whole.