A good place
I'm finally back in a good place. I have had a heartbreaking week. The best part was that I'm not sure anyone but Brandon cared or noticed. Kate Woodley did too. Good for her. Nic was usually not in his right mind when I saw him... I am listening to Jamie Cullum for the eight billionth time. If there is such a thing, this is surely a gift from God. I was in Barnes and Noble getting books for Va Woolf? and this album came on. If he hadn't covered a Radiohead song, I might not have noticed. The music is smooth and soulful. That's all I can use to summarize it. The feelings go from all sides of the spectrum, especially in the song "But for Now." I suppose this is what I want to talk about for sound memory.
I have listened to this CD many many times, but I first bought it when I was at my dad's house. I can't begin to go into the feelings that revolve around that scenario right now, but in summary I will say 'anxiety.' So I holed up in the basement for nearly a month as usual and listened to music. It's sad, but I the most contact I had was online. Of course I would take walks around suburbia and a paddleboat trip on the lake, but nothing extraordinary outside the realm of how amazing Life always is. The song "I Could Have Danced All Night" reminds me of sitting on the back porch in the shade of the deck, gazing at the lakewater below. My favourite part of the experience was sitting out at nighttime watching the spiders set up shop (there were at least a dozen that I could count) while I had a clandestine cigarette.
That overall experience really was an effective soul search. Maybe I will put a hiatus on having a soul for a while longer. I just don't want to hear "relax" or "don't look so disinterested" ever again. That happened last night at The Wave. Boo to that.
The complexity of Jamie Cullum's musical timbre is what gets me the most. In "Next Year Baby," there is a light beat, then a violin, then his rich voice. The overall effect is something you don't usually find in life. That is the key to sound in the end. We either don't notice it, or it moves and effects our emotions - panic, fear, anticipation, passion, charm, love, hate, disgust, and then there is music.
Well, I suppose I learn something if I pay enough attention. For now, I am going to go run lines with Andrew. I feel like I should say something inspiring, but it's gone. Just don't take even the worst spider for granted.
-A
I have listened to this CD many many times, but I first bought it when I was at my dad's house. I can't begin to go into the feelings that revolve around that scenario right now, but in summary I will say 'anxiety.' So I holed up in the basement for nearly a month as usual and listened to music. It's sad, but I the most contact I had was online. Of course I would take walks around suburbia and a paddleboat trip on the lake, but nothing extraordinary outside the realm of how amazing Life always is. The song "I Could Have Danced All Night" reminds me of sitting on the back porch in the shade of the deck, gazing at the lakewater below. My favourite part of the experience was sitting out at nighttime watching the spiders set up shop (there were at least a dozen that I could count) while I had a clandestine cigarette.
That overall experience really was an effective soul search. Maybe I will put a hiatus on having a soul for a while longer. I just don't want to hear "relax" or "don't look so disinterested" ever again. That happened last night at The Wave. Boo to that.
The complexity of Jamie Cullum's musical timbre is what gets me the most. In "Next Year Baby," there is a light beat, then a violin, then his rich voice. The overall effect is something you don't usually find in life. That is the key to sound in the end. We either don't notice it, or it moves and effects our emotions - panic, fear, anticipation, passion, charm, love, hate, disgust, and then there is music.
Well, I suppose I learn something if I pay enough attention. For now, I am going to go run lines with Andrew. I feel like I should say something inspiring, but it's gone. Just don't take even the worst spider for granted.
-A