Oh my

[graveyardfears]

So in over 20 years I never saw my mom drunk... but thats no longer true. Although up until this year I never saw my uncle dead on the floor, I also never broke anyone's nose... especially my brother's. So many things are just wrong. I don't like whats happening around me. The things people are doing, the things that I'm doing, I don't like it at all. I just feel like there has to be some point were it will all balance, right? Good things happen to good people. I don't think I'm much of a saint by any means but I know I don't deserve so much at once. My mom doesn't. Seeing her upset not knowing how shes going to be able to keep the house is killing me. I don't know how to fix all this. I need to explore options to buy out my dad's half of the house so we don't have to sell it. I don't know how I can do it. I wanted to write it all down, get it all out, but I just cant get my head together right now and I fear none of this is making enough sense. Its just all so much at once.

The world is what you make it, starting now I'm going to make it work for me.