and the rosary beads
ever get those days where everything goes well, but you still feel like crying at the end of the ngiht? yea, well one of those days is here.....im ust hopeing its because im on my rag.....HOPEING! but i cried and now im going to call drew and garret because they are the only ones who can make me feel better right now. i basically need someone to tell me im being dumb and to go to bed because ill forget about it in the morning.....god i hope i get a good message in the am.....CRAP!!!!
i think i cried tonight because of steven too. i mean, i havent talked to him in a month and its a little sad. i didnt want to forget about him, andi havent, its just been hard. i mean, ive been waiting for a phone call.......i made a slight effort the other day but it didnt really get me anywhere. im so affraid that hes just so angry towards me, that if i ever saw him in town i wouldnt get the time of day from him, or i would be laughed at, or stared at, or anything negative.....he was my best friend for 3 years, how can he just forget about me? i ahvent forgotten about him thats for sure. i think about him every day.....i love him and hope hes doing well, and living, and having a good time.....and i hope i made the right choice.....and i hope hope hope hes not mad at me.....
what do i do?
i think i cried tonight because of steven too. i mean, i havent talked to him in a month and its a little sad. i didnt want to forget about him, andi havent, its just been hard. i mean, ive been waiting for a phone call.......i made a slight effort the other day but it didnt really get me anywhere. im so affraid that hes just so angry towards me, that if i ever saw him in town i wouldnt get the time of day from him, or i would be laughed at, or stared at, or anything negative.....he was my best friend for 3 years, how can he just forget about me? i ahvent forgotten about him thats for sure. i think about him every day.....i love him and hope hes doing well, and living, and having a good time.....and i hope i made the right choice.....and i hope hope hope hes not mad at me.....
what do i do?