"Three Tears I've Saved For You!"

[graves_13]

ok so here it is to all you dumb fucks back in az. I love you guys to death but i have had alot on my mind lately and they concern pretty much just two people. You two are my best friends and i am seeing you do such stupid things , one alot more than the other. wtf is wrong with you guys do you really think i want to have to watch you two die from lung cancer or an od like i have so many other people that i cared about. you two don't have any clue what it is like to see someone die day by day and know there is nothing you can do about it like i have. i love you both with all of my heart and i am forced to see you make such stupid decisions. You say that it is so hard to see your grandpa because he allways looks worse and worse but you are killing yourself how does that make me feel. When i took one drag off of a cigarette to see why my grandpa killed himself for all of those years you tripped the fuck out and wouldn't talk, touch, or even look at me and now you are a chain smoker what the fuck?! you are so mad at your mother all the time because of the drugs she is using and the things she is doing to you but you are doing the same to yourself. they may not be the same kind of drugs but you are an adict whether you want to admit it or not. You were clean for awhile and so great and then all i heard is i want to get high and now all i hear is god i am so high. that is all you do now and it fucking sucks you have let this shit control your life and i can't do shit about it but sit back and watch you throw everything away. You say things are going great one minute then the next they are hell. why do you think that is ? maybe because you are so fucking blazed all the time that you don't know the difference. i am not saying any of this to try and talk down or look down on you but because i am sick of feeling like the people i care about most are killing themselves. You two have no clue what it is like to see you make these decisions. you have no clue how much you make the person you say is your best friend feel like shit. i feel like everything i have ever tried to say to you has gone in one ear and out the other. idk what to do anymore but watch back and see you kill yourselves. i hope you read this and atleast make some sense out of it and have it kick you both in the ass so you can give the stupid shit you do up. if i have to see you two keep up this shit then i wont be able to stay around when i come back because i am sick of watching you die and become controlled by your addictions.

ps sorry for the mis-spellings and such i am just out of it today
Love: Graves x13x <--- don't forget to start callin me that