She headed into the kitchen to start dinner and I just sighed and went back to playing, watching her move around the kitchen.
There's something about your smile There's something about the way you make me feel Keeps me holding on It brings me back, you know what game to play Back into your flame Back towards the point of no return To see your face again
To point it out there's no one else apart from you you drugging me with all the things you do But you already know that I want you But you already know that I need you
So hear me, feel me Oh can you handle me baby (2x) Love me, heal me don't turn me down no (2x) Don't you want me
So it is not that I don't care oh no It's not that I don't give a damn no no no no I But I don't think it's fair hey
To point it out there's no one else it's only you can drugging me with all the things you do But you already know that I want you But you already know that I need you
So hear me, feel me Oh can you handle me baby (2x) Love me, heal me don't turn me down no (2x) For I need to trust you Oh can you handle me baby (2x) Love you always Don't turn me down no, don't turn me down Don't u want me? oh-oh (2x)
So hear me, feel me Oh can you handle me baby (2x) Love me, heal me Don't turn me down no (2x) For I need to trust you Oh can you handle me baby (2x) Love you always Don't turn me down baby (2x)
Love me heal me Don't turn me down (2x) Don't u want me?
I couldn't help but smile as he sang while I made dinner. Humming softly to the music he played I pulled the chicken out of the fridge along with the eggs and everything else I needed to make dinner.
Being here, with Lindsey was nice, I never wanted to leave. I liked it being here, just the two of us. My body was still humming from everything we've done the past two days, my mind wouldn't wrap around it. I couldn't believe that not only did I find someone that I loved, that loved me back but that it was a man that wanted me to move in with him. I loved that idea, I loved the idea of Lindsey and I living together because being with him made me feel things I've never felt before.
Dinner didn't take me too long and I decided to set the table and light candles all around the living room and kitchen. I fluttered my way around Lindsey as he played, trying not to bother him while I lit the final few candles.
I walked over to him and smiled down at him. "Dinner's done." I reached out and touched his cheek softly. "I love you." I couldn't get tired of saying it. I didn't want too.
I grinned and set my guitar aside before pulling her down into my lap for a sweet kiss. I imagined days like this in the future, the world aside I could see myself sitting, playing the guitar her making dinner.
I could see her grading papers and me making dinner. It all seemed more perfect than I'd ever imagined. And more perfect than would last. AS my life was a definate bit of complicated.
She laughed and got up, pulling me up with her. The table was so nicely decorated and I put my arms around her as we walked the short distance to it.
I smiled and nodded slightly. "I-I'm glad you like it. I made chicken and salad and poatoes and..." I laughed. "I think I went overboard..."
Taking his hand I pulled him over to his chair and sat next to him in my own. He looked disappointed I didn't sit in his lap like I did during breakfast. I grinned at him and then remembered I forgot the strawberry wine I bought, I got up and headed back into the kitchen, bringing it back and handing it to him. "Y-you better open this." I told him sheepishly.
I sat back down and started putting food onto our plates while he fiddled with the wine bottle. "You doing ok?" I laughed and pulled apart a roll, trying not to laugh at him as he struggled with the foil. "Foiled again?" I giggled and looked down.
I blushed slightly when he gave me a look. I pressed my lips together to try and keep from laughing, that wasn't easy with the look on his face.
Soon we were both laughing and I got up, touched his cheek and kissed his forehead. "Yes honey, I'm very amused." I pulled back and smiled at him before taking the wine and pouring it for the two of us.
He pulled me to his lap and I wrapped my arms around his neck, leaning down and kissing him softly. "Dinner is going to get cold you know." I smiled at him and closed my eyes when he touched my face, such a simple movement and it just made everything else fade away.
I relented a bit and rested my head against his forehead, sitting quietly and just feeling at peace, right here and in this moment with him. "Can we run away? Never go back to LA, just like live somewhere else, as someone else. I just..." I sighed. "I don't want to go back." To LA where I know you can get hurt, where you most likely will get hurt. I don't think I can bare it.
"I don't want to go back either, in fact running away sounds like a great idea but ..."
I could feel her sigh, she wasn't happy there was a but. There was always a but, I wasn't sure I could tell her what they'd do to me if I ran away, what they would possibly to do her to get me back if I did. It would only serve to scare her and I wasn't sure I wanted her looking at me like she had when we first met.
Like I was something to be scared of; that look hadn't lasted long but I remember it too clearly for my own liking.
"the firm doesn't just let you leave. Nor will they just let you stay away if they don't want you to. Imagine what they could do if they know my hugest weakness. They certainly think they know it, but they don't. Lilah has probably figured it out by now, and it's not likely she'll keep it to herself."
I tightened my arms around her and wanted to take all the confusion and fear away, I wasnted to be a normal guy who worked in a normal place and didn't have to worry about shit like this. But I'd never be that guy, I made my bed and I had to lie in it, i just hoped she'd be able to handle it when things got hard.
I swallowed hard and nodded. "I know. They won't, I promise. T-they won't get to me. I know you, and by my s-small conversation with Lilah, I can tell h-how she works."
Leaning in I kissed him soundly, feeling him pull me tighter against him. "You won't lose me Mac. You're stuck with me." I pulled back and smiled down at him, kissing him softly before I reluctantly started to pull myself out of his arms. "Cold. Dinner." I murmured, brushing my lips against his, knowing if I stayed near him like this we were going to end up somewhere in this cabin without much to wear.
I sighed and sat in my chair, rubbing my leg against his and lacing my fingers with his. "We'll be just fine, promise."
I grumbled when she left my lap, It served to remind me that time was still in full bloom here, that soon we'd have to go back, back to a world where we had responabilities.
"I'm going to hold you to that," I half joked knowing things might not really be fine. It's something that made my world that much more difficult, but I also knew that the things in life that were worth having usually were difficult.
We sat and ate our food that had been growing cold. The silence was comfortable; so comfortable that it should have scared me. But it didn't, the only scary thing in this relationship was the possibility that it might hurt her, or that I could loose her. She'd sent my world spinning in a tailspin.
She was nearest to perfection; and she was flawed, I wasn't stupid, no person was ever just perfect, but even with her flaws she was closest to it as it would be. I loved her.
There's something about your smile
There's something about the way you make me feel
Keeps me holding on
It brings me back, you know what game to play
Back into your flame
Back towards the point of no return
To see your face again
To point it out there's no one else apart from you
you drugging me with all the things you do
But you already know that I want you
But you already know that I need you
So hear me, feel me
Oh can you handle me baby (2x)
Love me, heal me
don't turn me down no (2x)
Don't you want me
So it is not that I don't care oh no
It's not that I don't give a damn no no no no I
But I don't think it's fair hey
To point it out there's no one else it's only you
can drugging me with all the things you do
But you already know that I want you
But you already know that I need you
So hear me, feel me
Oh can you handle me baby (2x)
Love me, heal me
don't turn me down no (2x)
For I need to trust you
Oh can you handle me baby (2x)
Love you always
Don't turn me down no, don't turn me down
Don't u want me? oh-oh (2x)
So hear me, feel me
Oh can you handle me baby (2x)
Love me, heal me
Don't turn me down no (2x)
For I need to trust you
Oh can you handle me baby (2x)
Love you always
Don't turn me down baby (2x)
Love me heal me
Don't turn me down (2x)
Don't u want me?
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Being here, with Lindsey was nice, I never wanted to leave. I liked it being here, just the two of us. My body was still humming from everything we've done the past two days, my mind wouldn't wrap around it. I couldn't believe that not only did I find someone that I loved, that loved me back but that it was a man that wanted me to move in with him. I loved that idea, I loved the idea of Lindsey and I living together because being with him made me feel things I've never felt before.
Dinner didn't take me too long and I decided to set the table and light candles all around the living room and kitchen. I fluttered my way around Lindsey as he played, trying not to bother him while I lit the final few candles.
I walked over to him and smiled down at him. "Dinner's done." I reached out and touched his cheek softly. "I love you." I couldn't get tired of saying it. I didn't want too.
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I could see her grading papers and me making dinner. It all seemed more perfect than I'd ever imagined. And more perfect than would last. AS my life was a definate bit of complicated.
She laughed and got up, pulling me up with her. The table was so nicely decorated and I put my arms around her as we walked the short distance to it.
"This all looks amazing."
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Taking his hand I pulled him over to his chair and sat next to him in my own. He looked disappointed I didn't sit in his lap like I did during breakfast. I grinned at him and then remembered I forgot the strawberry wine I bought, I got up and headed back into the kitchen, bringing it back and handing it to him. "Y-you better open this." I told him sheepishly.
I sat back down and started putting food onto our plates while he fiddled with the wine bottle. "You doing ok?" I laughed and pulled apart a roll, trying not to laugh at him as he struggled with the foil. "Foiled again?" I giggled and looked down.
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"You doing ok? Foiled again?"
I gave her a look, "Funny," and finally I popped the cork out. She laughed and I couldn't help but join her.
"You are far too amused by this."
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Soon we were both laughing and I got up, touched his cheek and kissed his forehead. "Yes honey, I'm very amused." I pulled back and smiled at him before taking the wine and pouring it for the two of us.
He pulled me to his lap and I wrapped my arms around his neck, leaning down and kissing him softly. "Dinner is going to get cold you know." I smiled at him and closed my eyes when he touched my face, such a simple movement and it just made everything else fade away.
I relented a bit and rested my head against his forehead, sitting quietly and just feeling at peace, right here and in this moment with him. "Can we run away? Never go back to LA, just like live somewhere else, as someone else. I just..." I sighed. "I don't want to go back." To LA where I know you can get hurt, where you most likely will get hurt. I don't think I can bare it.
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"I don't want to go back either, in fact running away sounds like a great idea but ..."
I could feel her sigh, she wasn't happy there was a but. There was always a but, I wasn't sure I could tell her what they'd do to me if I ran away, what they would possibly to do her to get me back if I did. It would only serve to scare her and I wasn't sure I wanted her looking at me like she had when we first met.
Like I was something to be scared of; that look hadn't lasted long but I remember it too clearly for my own liking.
"the firm doesn't just let you leave. Nor will they just let you stay away if they don't want you to. Imagine what they could do if they know my hugest weakness. They certainly think they know it, but they don't. Lilah has probably figured it out by now, and it's not likely she'll keep it to herself."
I tightened my arms around her and wanted to take all the confusion and fear away, I wasnted to be a normal guy who worked in a normal place and didn't have to worry about shit like this. But I'd never be that guy, I made my bed and I had to lie in it, i just hoped she'd be able to handle it when things got hard.
And I knew they'd get hard.
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Leaning in I kissed him soundly, feeling him pull me tighter against him. "You won't lose me Mac. You're stuck with me." I pulled back and smiled down at him, kissing him softly before I reluctantly started to pull myself out of his arms. "Cold. Dinner." I murmured, brushing my lips against his, knowing if I stayed near him like this we were going to end up somewhere in this cabin without much to wear.
I sighed and sat in my chair, rubbing my leg against his and lacing my fingers with his. "We'll be just fine, promise."
I had to have hope, of some kind.
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"I'm going to hold you to that," I half joked knowing things might not really be fine. It's something that made my world that much more difficult, but I also knew that the things in life that were worth having usually were difficult.
We sat and ate our food that had been growing cold. The silence was comfortable; so comfortable that it should have scared me. But it didn't, the only scary thing in this relationship was the possibility that it might hurt her, or that I could loose her. She'd sent my world spinning in a tailspin.
She was nearest to perfection; and she was flawed, I wasn't stupid, no person was ever just perfect, but even with her flaws she was closest to it as it would be. I loved her.
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