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i fear i may be upsetting myself again. I just had a panic attack, a BIG one. my mouth went dry, my body was rigid and stiff, i started to choke, my heart was beating fast and hard against my chest. I snapped out of it in a cold sweat. im still sweating and coughing. I don't want to slip back into depression, and i absolutely MUST keep myself alive and happy. im getting to think that may be difficult, though. I need a doctor, stat.