Don't read unless you care to listen to me rant bout a sucky weekend...
Anyways, This weekend went alright, and then really bad really quickly. Easter, got the CD I wanted, then me and my brother went to chill. That was kinda cool, don't get to hang out with him as much anymore, he's still a retard though. Stopped by Manifest which has changed their name to something else which kinda bothered me. He got the Acoustic and the Strings Tribute to Tool cds while he was there, so I ripped em on to my computer, the string ensemble one is amazing. good stuff. but what started out as a decent day and what not slowly went down hill...
A friend of mine ended up having a terrible weekend as well *insert: its all BRAD's fault ;p*, and I feel like I'm partly to blame. Sunday night she was all down and shit, so I felt like crap. On top of that I was feelin like shit cuz of things goin on with this girl, had to tell her that nothin was gonna happen between us for various reason. Never felt more like an asshole in my life than I do now. She then turned and blamed it on Brittany, my ex...least thats what I heard, and it wasn't her fault at all... All that was kinda mixed between today, yesterday and sunday... its all one big blur and one big mess.
Started to feel better today, walked into my psych class late, didn't study for the test I wasn't aware we had til last night, and finished before everyone else, and I gurantee I get an 80 or above. Got some make up work done for another class, then went to Math, where I panicked, cuz I thought we had a test, but we didn't, so ima ace that bitch too now that its on thursday... but today was goin good, til Abby and Brittany started going at it... Had to talk to Abby, and that ended in me hating myself some more... Christina is still pretty down, and wishin I could help...
Oh sunday night, ended up freakin out and breakin down, had like an anxiety attack, and ended up unloading on Daniel (his family took me in when I got kicked outta my house). I don't say unload like bitch at him, I just broke down cuz I feel like I don't deserve the kindness they show me... They REFUSE any rent money, they give me a place to sleep, food, take me places with out question, they give me money on occasions if I need it... why do I deserve that? If I didn't deserve to stay in my own house that I was brought into and lived in for 18 years, why do I deserve to have someone take care of me like that. But yeah, got into a long rant that night to him bout how I felt terrible for the whole situation and all, bunch of emotional stuff... hate it when I keep shit in and let it build like that, hate getting to that point and being so fuckin emotional... anyways, done with my bitching for the night... Ima go feel sorry for myself and be all emo like... *gags* ok, not emo like, but ima go do something... dunno what yet... later
I'm Wayne brady bitch! haha!
A friend of mine ended up having a terrible weekend as well *insert: its all BRAD's fault ;p*, and I feel like I'm partly to blame. Sunday night she was all down and shit, so I felt like crap. On top of that I was feelin like shit cuz of things goin on with this girl, had to tell her that nothin was gonna happen between us for various reason. Never felt more like an asshole in my life than I do now. She then turned and blamed it on Brittany, my ex...least thats what I heard, and it wasn't her fault at all... All that was kinda mixed between today, yesterday and sunday... its all one big blur and one big mess.
Started to feel better today, walked into my psych class late, didn't study for the test I wasn't aware we had til last night, and finished before everyone else, and I gurantee I get an 80 or above. Got some make up work done for another class, then went to Math, where I panicked, cuz I thought we had a test, but we didn't, so ima ace that bitch too now that its on thursday... but today was goin good, til Abby and Brittany started going at it... Had to talk to Abby, and that ended in me hating myself some more... Christina is still pretty down, and wishin I could help...
Oh sunday night, ended up freakin out and breakin down, had like an anxiety attack, and ended up unloading on Daniel (his family took me in when I got kicked outta my house). I don't say unload like bitch at him, I just broke down cuz I feel like I don't deserve the kindness they show me... They REFUSE any rent money, they give me a place to sleep, food, take me places with out question, they give me money on occasions if I need it... why do I deserve that? If I didn't deserve to stay in my own house that I was brought into and lived in for 18 years, why do I deserve to have someone take care of me like that. But yeah, got into a long rant that night to him bout how I felt terrible for the whole situation and all, bunch of emotional stuff... hate it when I keep shit in and let it build like that, hate getting to that point and being so fuckin emotional... anyways, done with my bitching for the night... Ima go feel sorry for myself and be all emo like... *gags* ok, not emo like, but ima go do something... dunno what yet... later
I'm Wayne brady bitch! haha!