control
I wish I was the type of person that could jut give everything up and disappear. To pack all of my things up and be gone; and not feel guilty. My life would be so much easier if I had that much control. I work at things and don't know how to let everything go. I have a huge problem with wanting control of everything in my life. I I I. Me. Me. Me. I want to pack a little bit of stuff and withdrawl all of my money and see how far it takes me. I want so bad to go back to school, to the days when work isn't such a god damn issue. When money didn't control my life, I didn't have any commitments besides homework cheer and what time to be home at night. Freedom and living on your own is so overrated. Its really hard to not get this stressed out when everything that can crash down does. I need out of where I'm living. I need out of my mind I think, a mental break. A medicated 3-day sleep session would be amazing. Just some time would be good at this point. I need to figure myself out again, and what's most important anymore. Wish me luck with this new... I don't even know. Excursion? :\