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STUPID GIRLY RANT. DON'T ACT LIKE I DIDN'T WARN YOU!
K so I've gained about 10 pounds, I don't really know when... I guess during the summer and into the fall. My life is so busy I can't even get the weight off, and when life is not busy, I'm too tired to get the motivation to do something about it. I'm not used to being more lumpy, and being 5 feet I think it just looks disgusting, and I would look better if I was petite all over. I don't "wear the fat well", it doesn't look good because I'm short and small... just out of place...
I don't know if 1. I can get rid of it and 2. if I can just accept it. I've already tried a few times and failed. I dunno. I've never seen myself like this so it's hard to accept it, and I'm pretty sure I just keep gaining more and more weight. I've been trying to ignore it and convince myself I look the same but I don't. It's not like the fat could go to my butt or anything, it just sits at the bottom of my stomach and grows unproportionally. This is of course PERFECT since low rise jeans and tight shirts are in style (SARCASM). I'm sick of having to feel like I NEED to lose weight... but I just feel frustrated with my "old" clothes, I feel like they don't look as good and stuff...
It takes so much energy and motivation to start working out.... my Dad is a work-out fanatic, he actually goes everyday. So he's always asking me to go to the gym at THE WORST TIMES. I am not sure if he's doing it to imply that I need to lose weight, but he's always trying to convince me to go to the gym. Whether or not he's doing it about "weight", it still frustrates me because when GYM comes up I get all these cycle-thoughts ... HMM yea should go... but should do school work... but how am I gonna get rid of this weight... but school's more important!... but I feel and look gross... work out at HOME!.. don't have time, gotta study... ETC ETC ETC
I really don't think it matters how big or small we are, in this f'ed up society we live in, I think we may always be discontent.
K so I've gained about 10 pounds, I don't really know when... I guess during the summer and into the fall. My life is so busy I can't even get the weight off, and when life is not busy, I'm too tired to get the motivation to do something about it. I'm not used to being more lumpy, and being 5 feet I think it just looks disgusting, and I would look better if I was petite all over. I don't "wear the fat well", it doesn't look good because I'm short and small... just out of place...
I don't know if 1. I can get rid of it and 2. if I can just accept it. I've already tried a few times and failed. I dunno. I've never seen myself like this so it's hard to accept it, and I'm pretty sure I just keep gaining more and more weight. I've been trying to ignore it and convince myself I look the same but I don't. It's not like the fat could go to my butt or anything, it just sits at the bottom of my stomach and grows unproportionally. This is of course PERFECT since low rise jeans and tight shirts are in style (SARCASM). I'm sick of having to feel like I NEED to lose weight... but I just feel frustrated with my "old" clothes, I feel like they don't look as good and stuff...
It takes so much energy and motivation to start working out.... my Dad is a work-out fanatic, he actually goes everyday. So he's always asking me to go to the gym at THE WORST TIMES. I am not sure if he's doing it to imply that I need to lose weight, but he's always trying to convince me to go to the gym. Whether or not he's doing it about "weight", it still frustrates me because when GYM comes up I get all these cycle-thoughts ... HMM yea should go... but should do school work... but how am I gonna get rid of this weight... but school's more important!... but I feel and look gross... work out at HOME!.. don't have time, gotta study... ETC ETC ETC
I really don't think it matters how big or small we are, in this f'ed up society we live in, I think we may always be discontent.