look mom i'm famous! i mean, i'm flagrant.
cannot get enough of atmosphere, even if i wanted to, it's never ever ending. montana doesn't offer much for the social life. i'd really love to make some friends but i don't know where to begin. how do you approach someone when you look like a yeti and ask them how their doing, or strike up a legitimate, non-creepy, conversation? my snowboarding outfit adds about 30 pounds to me and you might as well confuse me for an oversized man. making friends is difficult under these conditions. i'm confined to a mountain, which would seem excellent, (which it is, don't get me wrong), but it is very lonely.
i'm confusing myself more than anyone i've ever met has confused me. its that i'm confusing my wants with my needs and i figure so much more is necessary than it actually is. and the people situation, which people do i want in my life, and which people do i actually need? that sounds awful but its true. i have this whole "mother" complex. i need to stop taking care of everyone. i wish we had water in this place. i have 3 vitamin water left but i'm trying to save them for the whole trip. plus i just brushed my teeth and that could not taste very good.
it's one thirty my natural time, but twelve thirty, here. and i don't know if i like that concept. one hour off and i'm freaking out. i want to be back in minnesota where at least i had cats to cuddle, and people to enjoy a meal with me. here there's just absolutely no one to talk to. it's a very lonely life to lead, perhaps i'm not ready to grow up. 7 days and counting, as soon as i fall asleep. i know i'll appreciate it when it's over because i've been waiting for this for the past several months. and i hope things are different when i get back. maybe a sense of appreciation would be nice. but for now, it's pretty lonely, and my boots don't fit me right, so my toes hurt all the time. going out for dinner every night is nice, and the healthy lifestyle is refreshing. i guess i have tim, and shrek baby. and text messaging and the internet.
i can't sleep.
your talk is cheap. best friend my ass. i'm trying very hard not to be hostile, but you really hurt my feelings. i know i said some things and i did mean them, but not anymore. its not like that anymore. i just want you back in my life. stop putting other things before the people that care the most for you. and if you're going to just let me know so i can put you out of my life. please don't ever do that to another person. i thought i knew who and what you were but turns out everyone else was right about you. if you don't spend time with me when i get back, and if she comes before me, again. i don't know if i can do it anymore. i knew it all along, i just didn't want to believe it.
internets a bitch. i cannot wait to say that aloud when i get home
took a right on lyndale i'm getting near
but then the road became empty and the people disappeared.
the clouds ran away, opened up the sky.
and one by one i watched every constellation die,
and there i was frozen, standing in my backyard.
face to face, eye to eye, staring at the last star.
no doubtttt. best s
i'm confusing myself more than anyone i've ever met has confused me. its that i'm confusing my wants with my needs and i figure so much more is necessary than it actually is. and the people situation, which people do i want in my life, and which people do i actually need? that sounds awful but its true. i have this whole "mother" complex. i need to stop taking care of everyone. i wish we had water in this place. i have 3 vitamin water left but i'm trying to save them for the whole trip. plus i just brushed my teeth and that could not taste very good.
it's one thirty my natural time, but twelve thirty, here. and i don't know if i like that concept. one hour off and i'm freaking out. i want to be back in minnesota where at least i had cats to cuddle, and people to enjoy a meal with me. here there's just absolutely no one to talk to. it's a very lonely life to lead, perhaps i'm not ready to grow up. 7 days and counting, as soon as i fall asleep. i know i'll appreciate it when it's over because i've been waiting for this for the past several months. and i hope things are different when i get back. maybe a sense of appreciation would be nice. but for now, it's pretty lonely, and my boots don't fit me right, so my toes hurt all the time. going out for dinner every night is nice, and the healthy lifestyle is refreshing. i guess i have tim, and shrek baby. and text messaging and the internet.
i can't sleep.
your talk is cheap. best friend my ass. i'm trying very hard not to be hostile, but you really hurt my feelings. i know i said some things and i did mean them, but not anymore. its not like that anymore. i just want you back in my life. stop putting other things before the people that care the most for you. and if you're going to just let me know so i can put you out of my life. please don't ever do that to another person. i thought i knew who and what you were but turns out everyone else was right about you. if you don't spend time with me when i get back, and if she comes before me, again. i don't know if i can do it anymore. i knew it all along, i just didn't want to believe it.
internets a bitch. i cannot wait to say that aloud when i get home
took a right on lyndale i'm getting near
but then the road became empty and the people disappeared.
the clouds ran away, opened up the sky.
and one by one i watched every constellation die,
and there i was frozen, standing in my backyard.
face to face, eye to eye, staring at the last star.
no doubtttt. best s