Jan 28, 2007 16:11
i really enjoy wasting my time entirely. i have nothing too great going on right now, i'm sitting in my sunroom watching television, checking my myspace, and being super duper lame. i never have had this problem in my life,... in a sense it's nice, but to a sper extent, it is stressful, on account i can hardly all home home sometimes. it's practically just something that a bury myself in, i don't have anyone to socialize with here because my dad's always too busy playing video games, as well as my brother, my mom's always in her room, and i'm always locked in the sunroom. the only good part of it is i don't have to worry about anyone but myself here, where as when i am out and about i have to worry about everyone else.
maybe it's a good thing that my car's in the shop, as stressful as it may be, a break is nice, sometimes. i was so happy last night, i couldn't stop smiling, and when i almost stopped, i thought why i would be frowning and i just smiled my face off. it was pretty nice.
i just spoke to my wonderful jillian, my favoritest sister (my only sister), i love her so much. i kind of feel like just passing out on my couch right now, either that or go play some guitar hero. work was so upsetting, i was ranked at like,... very last. i don't think you really understand how stupid that is, because my managers are jerks to me except for beth. i love beth, but i don't understand why they have to treat me like that. i'm almost convinced that i'm going to have to leave, and find a new job. no one really treats me with any form of respect, and i'm quite possibly one of the people in the world that treats people with a whole lot of respect, i've never been rude or cruel to anyone that that i work with, but oh well, i'll get over it.
"don't you ever say Jesus again, he was our best president, EVER!!"
ahaha this show is so silly and corny and cheesy, but i'm loving it.
to never open a book, always reading a magazine.
outspend, betting if it looks like winning you haven't been.
knives don't have your back,
i wait and i count, the knives don't have your back.
i wait and i count to the last breath we take.
what we made, doesn't make sense.
what's a wolf without a pack?
open your chest, and take the heart from it.
open your chest.
what's bad, we'll fix it.
what's wrong, we'll make it alright, alright.
it's gone, we'll find it.
takes so long, we've got time.
all the time.
some part of you too small to lose.
some part of you, too small to lose.
all of us, all of you.
all of us, all of you counting to the last breath we take.
what we made, doesn't make sense.
what's a wolf without a pack?
open your chest and take the heart from it.
when you talk, can i tape you?
how'd you get what we don't know?
we don't know how to help,
only know how to hound.
nose to the grindstone,
grindstone to the ground.
don't even visit that place,
they'll sharpen their teeth on your smile.
i'm glad you didn't,
all our songs will be lullabyes in no time.
what's bad, what's wrong, make it alright, alright.
its gone, so long.
we've got time, all the time.
all the time.
oh me oh my,
i'm lost and scared, in my own pleasure of life, in my own good feelings. i don't think i can get out this time.