i'm fabulous.
i think i have THE most beautiful people in my life, quite possibly. and i'm so happy right now, so happy. i have nothing to frown about, i have my friends and that's all i need. except apparently i need good grades, too? which i know i do but i really just want to shut school off. i can't wait till thanksgiving, winter break, spring break, summer. i can't wait at all. i'm almost a senior, i'm almost done. this years going by so fast, i've made so many great friends, i've learned so many things about myself and others that i never thought possible. i just want to live every day as i live it, and have to negative feedback from my family members. i don't want to keep getting bothered about the way i act, the people i hang out with, the life i lead. the life i apparently need. i hate that, that's the one thing i have left to frown about, but i'm pretty sure i'm very happy, so very happy.
i'm tired of being so shady, though. i hate hiding, but i can't admit a lot. it's hard when you're in those sorts of situations. when little white lies are what you have to live by, when they aren't even really lies at all, just a mask, in a sense? i don't want to have to be someone, i want to be who i am. and i want them to accept me for it. I know she does, she does accept me. But he wishes i were an entirely different person, i can't even get away with being happy. he just has to make me a little less everytime i walk through the door. i feel smaller and smaller every time i come home. and i honestly, i can't take it anymore.
andy, david, jill, austin, megan, emily, parker, billy, zoe, eddie, cam, joe, max
to be completely honest, i don't know what i'd do without you.
i'm a straight up thug,
me and beth decided tonight at work when i would not stop rapping. i'm a g.
i'm tired of being so shady, though. i hate hiding, but i can't admit a lot. it's hard when you're in those sorts of situations. when little white lies are what you have to live by, when they aren't even really lies at all, just a mask, in a sense? i don't want to have to be someone, i want to be who i am. and i want them to accept me for it. I know she does, she does accept me. But he wishes i were an entirely different person, i can't even get away with being happy. he just has to make me a little less everytime i walk through the door. i feel smaller and smaller every time i come home. and i honestly, i can't take it anymore.
andy, david, jill, austin, megan, emily, parker, billy, zoe, eddie, cam, joe, max
to be completely honest, i don't know what i'd do without you.
i'm a straight up thug,
me and beth decided tonight at work when i would not stop rapping. i'm a g.