When Words Fail - Part 3
Title: When Words Fail
Author: grapefruit_jely
Part: 3/?
Pairing: ReitaxKai
Genre: Angst?, Romance?
Rating: R
Warning: sex
Summary: “Because their two bodies so close in intimacy seemed like the only thing they needed to keep their hearts beating.” But minds are racing, and hearts are racing, and love is so much more complicated when it’s not just about the sex, and emotions get involved.
Previous: Prologue, Part 1, Part 2
They wanted to be in love; they really did.
When their lips met in a sloppy, needy kiss everything just felt so damn right. And when they broke apart to catch their breath, it didn’t seem important enough to try and catch. Because their two bodies so close in intimacy seemed like the only thing they needed to keep their hearts beating.
When they were together like this, it seemed like there was nothing to worry about. Their worries were all just pushed into the back of their heads. But it stayed there, and no matter how hard they tried to pretend it wasn’t there, they knew it was.
That night they slept together peacefully, for the first time in what seemed forever.
There was a lot to worry about.
And the days passed uneventfully. Nothing too big, but nothing big enough either. Everything had gone back to normal, but their relationship’s standard of normal had never been too high. Everything went back to the way it was before. Nothing was perfect.
But their tiny breakthrough, which had been the glue to their relationship for the last couple of days, wouldn’t last much longer.
Because they needed much more than that to stay together.
“Kai, why did you choose me?” Reita asked as they lay together in bed.
“Because I liked you.”
And of course, that was no lie. But maybe there had been something more; Kai just needed someone to tell him those three magic words of ‘I love you.’
Reita had never been much of a morning person. Sleeping felt so good; he never wanted to wake up.
So when the sun rose that morning, and Kai woke him up, gently placing his hand on the other’s bare shoulder to give him a little shake, the blonde moaned and turned the other way.
“Wake up, sleepyhead, we’re going to be late for practice.”
“Stop,” Reita whined, as he shooed away Kai’s hand.
“Well, I’m taking a shower now. Be sure to get up soon.” Kai pouted as he got out of bed, and headed for the bathroom.
But when Kai returned to the bedroom, with only a white towel around his waist, Reita was still in bed.
“Reita, get up!”
“Oh my god, you’re so annoying.” But the bassist was finally awaking, rubbing his tired eyes.
Reita got up, and made his way towards Kai; standing right in front of his nearly naked body.
“I’m annoying? Jesus Christ, Rei. Well maybe if you could actually get up on your own then I wouldn’t have to annoy you. But you obviously can’t do even that.” Having to wake Reita up had become a morning routine ever since they started sleeping together. And quite frankly, it had become an annoying chore. Kai wondered how he had been able to get up on his own before, but then again, he used to always be late to practice. But for Kai, punctuality was important.
“Yeah, you are.” Reita licked his lips. His eyes examined Kai’s lips, still moist from his morning shower. “If being late is such a big deal, you can go without me.” Taking a step closer to the other, his eyes moved to the drummer’s wet, brunette locks. He could feel himself getting hard.
“No. Then everyone would think we were fighting again.” Kai started walking towards the closet to look for an outfit. But Reita was faster, and he stepped in front of him, standing in his way.
“Stop it.” Kai tried pushing the other out of the way, but he didn’t budge. He only moved closer to him, forcing Kai to back into the wall. The white wall felt cold against his bare back.
“Well why is that they always think that, huh?” Reita’s voice was low. He took another step closer, hands fisting in Kai’s wet hair. Crushing his lips against Kai’s forcefully, his tongue prodding for entrance into his mouth. Kai’s lips parted, and Reita was quick to dart his tongue inside.
Slightly panting they finally parted. Reita’s hands tightening his grip in the other’s hair almost painfully hard, pulling down to force his head to tilt back slightly. And the bassist’s lips were instantly on Kai’s neck; biting down on the soft flesh there, making a mark that would be visible for the others to see. Smiling, he moved his hands to rest on Kai’s hips. He looked at Kai waiting for an answer, but before he even could, Reita was grinding his hardening cock against Kai’s.
And Kai couldn’t focus his thoughts, he couldn’t focus on Reita’s words, he couldn’t focus on the time. And before he could hold it back, a shaky moan left his soft, pink lips.
“Well?” Reita asked, smiling at the way Kai squirmed under his touch. And Reita held Kai’s hips steady, steadying his own.
“I…I don’t know.” Kai tried to move his hips forward, tried to create that motion again. He wanted to feel that friction between them.
And when Reita started moving his hips again, he smiled as he felt Kai getting hard too.
“Well what do you think we’ll make them think if we walk in late together?”
“…I don’t know,” he answered again, his voice only slightly over a shaky whisper. Anything to keep Reita moving those hips.
"I guess we'll find out today."
Reita spun Kai’s body around; his towel falling off his hips, landing on the carpet. Kai stared at the white wall in front of him. And he paused for a moment, his mind racing. His attention only returned to what he was doing when he felt Reita’s warm hands grab his wrists, moving his hands to the wall in front of him. And Kai held his hands there, up against the wall, leaning on them for support, as he quickly spread his legs, moving his hips back slightly. Kai was always quick to spread his legs, Reita had noticed, ever since the first time they made love. He had always wondered why, but never had he questioned it.
And Reita just stood there, staring at Kai’s body. So perfect and flawless, with pale skin that looked so innocent, that Reita almost felt bad for making love to him. And he fell to his knees, hands gripping Kai’s ass, spreading them apart. Tongue moving towards Kai’s entrance almost painfully slow. And he paused for a moment, his heart racing. The brunette said with a whimper, as he moved his hips back just a little, “Please.” His attention only returned to what he was doing when Kai’s voice broke through his thoughts a little louder, “Please, just slip your tongue inside of me.”
And Reita did just that.
And a loud moan left Kai’s lips, so shamelessly. He couldn’t even hold it back; he didn’t want to hold it back. He wanted the other to know how good he made him feel.
“Hold on, I need to grab the lube,” Reita said when he pulled out of Kai.
“No, wait.” Kai turned to face the other. Reita had stood up, and Kai was now getting down on his knees in front of him, pulling his boxers down to his ankles. He took his cock in his mouth. Sucking only a little bit, he worked to get his cock wet with saliva. Kai’s mind was racing, only with thoughts of sex. Reita’s heart was racing, only with thoughts of arousal. Kai moved back and let Reita’s cock fall from his slightly swollen lips. He took his position again, hands against the wall.
And he could feel Reita moving behind him. And all those thoughts in the back of Kai’s head were making their way forward.
Reita pressed his cock against Kai’s entrance. “You ready?”
But Kai shook his head, only the tiniest bit that the other didn’t even notice, as Reita pushed deep inside of him. And Kai kept his eyes closed tightly.
And when Reita pulled out of Kai, his shaky legs gave in, and Kai found himself a sweaty mess on the floor. He could no longer tell if his hair was wet from sweat or the shower water. He felt like he was up against a wall, trapped. But the sex felt so good, and he couldn’t even imagine losing it. And he thought that he might have felt a pang of pain deep down in his heart; maybe it was a little bit of guilt. He stayed sitting there on the ground. He couldn’t even turn around to face the other, so he just stayed there facing the white wall. It was so blank.
“Come on, take a quick shower with me.” Reita’s voice broke the silence.
“Okay.”
And they showered in a quick four minutes, in silence.
When they had finally gotten dressed, Kai stood in the hallway looking at his reflection in the mirror, as he waited for Reita. He hated what he saw.
He wanted to tell Reita to hurry up. But he didn’t. He couldn’t deal with another fight. Not right now.
"I change my answer," Kai said out of nowhere as Reita walked right past him, down the hallway. "They think we're always fighting, because we always are."
Author’s Notes:
Hmmm, hopefully I didn’t scare anyone away with my horribly written sex scene… .________.;; I don’t usually write things so… raunchy.