Mar 22, 2009 23:54
I'm a little excited to be alive and I have no clue why.
I'm not a person who likes uncertainty, but when I think of the future, near and far, there is a hazy dizziness that surrounds it all and it fills my body, not completely but like little fish nibbling at my toes, with adrenaline and resolution. I'm tired of sidelines and waiting. I'm in the face of both promise and failure and it thrills me and it terrifies me and I'm jumping. Headfirst and spinning and looking for a definition.
confusing to even myself,
unexpectedly serious