i hate cloudy sky during winter- everything looks dead
just some random moments of interest:
~i have been so caught up in work, that by the time i get home i am either not in the mood, or i am so drained from fighting the urge to walk away that i don't have a life, talk about bad work situation. . . it hurts really bad when you put in 100% but they treat you like you are putting nothing in. . .can't they see how hard tiff and i were working? god, it makes me red-hot the way she talked to us, it wasn't just talking down to, it was talking down to AND talking bad about. . .for no reason. . . and being able to say or do nothing about it because i need a job. . .
~i can't wait for the TOC tour. . .i feel the need to escape this town more and more everyday.
~i am loving the gym, but wishing i were see results. . .i guess in time. . .
~i wonder if you realize that i am not calling you. . .only talk when you call me. . .i wonder if you get what that means.
~yes. a little distances. i feel it on both parts here. i think that is what we both needed. i hate to say it, but we have become so different that i don't see how this wasn't comming. honestly. . .it isn't fun anymore when we hang out together, and i hope that you see that like i do. we seem to only remember the 'old times'. . .maybe it is just winter that is causing this. . .because it is hard to have fun with a layer of snow, and dead looking trees.
~i have finally started to get my life in order, i just don't know what to do with myself until fall. . .it seems hard. . .this is the one touchy subject with me right now, because i don't think certain people believe that this is what is going to happen, like they just don't believe in me, and they should, it can be hard to find your own way about something when you don't have the support. but oh well, i will make it on my own by myself, no problem.
~okay, i am done. . .off to the gym!
katie