just a little update in the world
i don't know what it is that i am looking for, but i hope to find it soon.
i really hate when people try to "fix" you. . .like their life is so much better then anything and that what they say will completely change your life.
i don't know if it is "just" anymore. . .that may not make sense to anyone, but i can't explain it without telling too much.
i told someone something that i promised myself i would never tell anyone. . .the world didn't end when i said it either. . .shock.
when she said "don't judge me katie" i had no idea just why i would be judging her. . .something tells me the driver was more judging then i was. . .
sometimes peace can be found at the bay.
i had a nice dream last night. . .sometimes i love my dreams. . .lets hope this one comes true.
i had a "perfect" morning this morning. . .i just woke up and was all cozy in my bed, i didn't want to get up and ruin the moment.
the lead singer of all-american rejects is hot. . .
i can't wait for this to be over, i am sick of it and it doesn't even have anything to do with me
i don't understand why he wants to be my friend. . .meggie i can understand, other people i can understand, but how can i be so mean 90% of the time and he still want to go do stuff with me? isn't that sad?
sometimes i don't believe i am worth it.
maybe something that so many people view as "what makes them different from everyone around them" really is what connects them to everyone else. . .maybe we are all just troubled youth desperate for the pain and torment to end that we feel we can't have faith and trust in those around us, yet so many feel the same way every day. . .maybe in the end that makes us human, maybe in the end that is why our parents and teachers, and adults around us can't understand us because they can't understand what we are going through. and we secrectly sit there, alone, in our rooms or at school, or out in public and feel completely hopeless because we have nobody there to understand what is wrong because to each of us it is impossible to think that there is someone else out there feeling such monumental pain. so we sit there by ourselves not knowing, not understanding, that there is someone else, because that some else is just about everyone else. it is sad that to think that our peers take there life, or make bad choices because they felt that they had nobody to relate to when in the end you will find you can relate to just about everyone around you because we are all feeling the same damn pain just in different forms.
***sorry, but that one has been building up for a while now, and it seems fitting with how certain things have played out in people around me. . .and well, i guess to a point myself. . . some will understand and relate, and others won't. . .and that is cool, i am putting in a movie now and doing nothing for the rest of the day. . .