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Its a scary thought to have, knowing that in less than 3 weeks high school will be over and the real world will take our innocent new faces and smear them with all the black tarnish out there. All i can feel is this incredibly strong emotion that is rather hard to explain, its a combination of fear and excitement mixed with heartbreak and lust. It terrifies me to know that in less than 3 weeks i will be tossed out into reality alone and unprepared.
For the past 17 years all ive known is school and friends, and now for the first time in my life i will live with niether by my side. That thought terrifies me. In the past 4 years alone, i have made some of the greatest friends. And so many memories that i could never forget. For the past few days its been in the back of my mind that i should be thinking about how highschool and friends have shaped me in these 4 years. And to be honest, i cant figure it out. But what i know, is that everytime i look at notes and pictures ive kept this overwhelming joy fills me inside and i get the biggest smile, because i have made the greatest friends that anyone could possibly ask for. And i have so many wonderful memories that i will cherish.
When i first went to North Toronto in grade 9 i was scared shitless, i felt too young and self conscious to be entering high school and nervous because i only knew 3 people. Zi-ann, Nevins and Ariel. And the first year was hard for me to adapt to. But i met friends, karen in art, ashley and claire in strings and jana and michelle too, and then with the year came more great friends, Gravey, Teesha, Archie, Jelena and so many more. And even though our group had problems, the first 2 years of highschool went by. Then i found out i was moving and i was pissed. And so we moved, and the very first day of school at Donald A. Wilson i met Natalie. I never even thought that her and i would see eachother again, but it turned out that fate would not have it that way, she and i had every single class together but one and its been that was for the past 2 years in each semester. And then throughout various classes i made more friends. Iman, lol when i met her she seemed like a stuck up bitch and she thought natalie and i were retarded. But we got to know eachother and we became so close. Amy and Lauren, Dim Sum and Jackie Chan, Leandra and even people that arent friends but i talk to at school.
Everyone just made such a difference in my life, and the number of people that have been there for me over the years, i cant even tell you how much thats meant to me. I never even imagined that by the end of grade 12 i would have the number of unbelievably gracious friends that i have. And despite all the bad, and which there is lots of, one single great memory wipes out half of the bad, and i have a lot of perfect memories. But im going to stop my rambling and sum up with a few words, i hope that life on my own is still filled with you all and thank yo guys for sticking it out with me, i know im crazy and whinny but i do love you guys so much and i really mean it. Words couldnt even articulate what i want to say. Thanks.