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It's been ages since I've updated. Vicky made me log on to check Berit's lj for something so that's why I'm on here. Maybe I'll actually update this more often.
I won't even bother trying to write everything that's happened since the last... year or so haha. To summarize it: I'm happily enjoying college and am content with my life.
Last week I got together with Mark and John to play through some new songs I wrote and record other songs. As I was listening back to the music, something came to mind that I've missed before. It made me realize that I've always missed the bigger picture. I've always (unfortunatley) had that big ego that comes along with being a trumpet player. I try not to show it but it always ends up coming out somehow. Trying to play high notes on trumpet, trying to be the best tenor, trying to be the jack of all trades. Fact is, I have a ways to go. Being the best doesn't matter because you're always going to need to work together with other people no matter what you do in life. Something else in that jam session that stood out to me was a certian song in particular. It made me feel that elusive feeling. The one that almost answers those fundamental questions of life. Why are we here? What's our purpose in life? It fills that void and for a moment and I can almost see the answer to those questions. Almost like seeing God Himself. But then it's gone as soon as it comes! The more I listen to it, the farther away I am from the answer. It's the nature of the beast. Each time I find a new perspective to this, it goes away. And so continues the search for the answer!
So yeah, I'm done trying to be a philosopher lol. Comment if you please. The End.
I won't even bother trying to write everything that's happened since the last... year or so haha. To summarize it: I'm happily enjoying college and am content with my life.
Last week I got together with Mark and John to play through some new songs I wrote and record other songs. As I was listening back to the music, something came to mind that I've missed before. It made me realize that I've always missed the bigger picture. I've always (unfortunatley) had that big ego that comes along with being a trumpet player. I try not to show it but it always ends up coming out somehow. Trying to play high notes on trumpet, trying to be the best tenor, trying to be the jack of all trades. Fact is, I have a ways to go. Being the best doesn't matter because you're always going to need to work together with other people no matter what you do in life. Something else in that jam session that stood out to me was a certian song in particular. It made me feel that elusive feeling. The one that almost answers those fundamental questions of life. Why are we here? What's our purpose in life? It fills that void and for a moment and I can almost see the answer to those questions. Almost like seeing God Himself. But then it's gone as soon as it comes! The more I listen to it, the farther away I am from the answer. It's the nature of the beast. Each time I find a new perspective to this, it goes away. And so continues the search for the answer!
So yeah, I'm done trying to be a philosopher lol. Comment if you please. The End.