ah fuck
man...this sucks...grant got me all excited n stuff bout 2nite then like he asked me if we could go to dinner w/ sum of his friends n i was fine w/ that but then i was talking to him on the fone n he had said he'd come pick me up so i wouldnt have to drive drunk but then he said to come meet him at his house n i asked him if we were still rentin a movie and 'partying' and he was like, ya well, we'll talk about it when u get here...so i think he's gunna b like 'ya i wanna hang out n smoke w/ my friends (not like i just did that last nite for the whole nite and morning)' and along that note berkley slept over n he was apparently fine w/ that but the i said i could maybe stay over 2nite but he was like, yaaaaaaa....we'll see like he didnt want me to...i didnt say nething cus i didnt want to start a fight...fuck i was so excited about 2nite, i took a shower n was gunna get a prettied up so i looked good for him but then he called n the plans have prolly changed n ill b bac home in like an hour...damnit...i shouldve known not to get excited, not im so depressed all the bad stuff is coming back to me...id really like it better if people would just come punch me instead of this being how it is...=(